Why Me?

chapter 8 - what's going on ?

      The next day went by like any other boring horrible day . Once the afternoon came I finally decided it was time to ask adam about the furniture . After washing my face and pep talking myself , I walked into my room . I got nervous when I saw adam sitting on the edge of the bed .

I might as well get this over with . I sat opposite of him and asked the question I've been waiting to hear the answer to . "Is it true that the furniture is used . Did you really buy it from a donation center?" I asked . He looked at me with plain anger in his eyes . 'Oh god'  "who told u that?" he asked through his teeth . 'That's not the answer I was looking for' I thought  "just answer the question" I told him

I'm not going to let him change the subject . He has to tell me why I'm sleeping on a used bed and putting my clothes in a used draw . We are newlyweds,  we should have new stuff or at least that's what I thought .

" I bought the furniture from a company that rich people give their old stuff too . I only bought it because it's practically brand new plus it was expensive and I changed the mattress. There's nothing wrong with that , but who told you? " he said curiosity showing clear in his voice .

I wondered if he was curious about what my reaction would be or who told me . I wasn't sure which one it is but he surely didn't want me to stay quiet.  I didn't like the fact that the furniture isn't new but at the same time it's really nice and hasn't been used that much and he did change the mattress. I guess that's not that bad but still he should have told me .

I decided to just answer his second question . " Jenna told me . She said her husband told her." He put his face in his hands and shook his head "wow" he mumbled. 
'So what if she told me , so what if her husband told her that just means he trusts her unlike you adam ' I say to myself .

When I look at him he is in deep thought . What's wrong with him why does he look so scared. I didn't know what he was thinking but I thought it would be best if I change the subject . "Ok so um, what do u want to do ?" I asked trying to get his mind off whatever it is he's thinking about . "Nothing I'm going out" he said standing up to grab his coat . "Where?" I asked. "to my friends house" he said not making eye contact .

I just let him leave . I didn't mind not spending time with him . That was just better for me . I got up and left the room to sit with raneem and Jenna.  We watched tv and talked . Even though I  didn't like how Jenna tried to cause a problem I didn't mind either . All is well that ends well .

After spending what was left of the afternoon and most of the night with them I got tired and got up . Adam had already cam home and he was now on the bed with his back towards me . I don't think he's sleeping but I'm not sure .

Suddenly the sleepiness I felt before vanished and I felt bored instead . Grabbing my headphones and ipod I plugged the earplugs in and blasted on music . Music helped me forget about everything going on with me.  It helped me ease my tensed muscles and I was thankful no one could take that away from me .

After a couple of songs ........ more like a lot of songs I decided to sleep but I really had to use the bathroom . I put my ipod away and got up from the floor . Adam wasn't on the bed and I didn't notice he left . 'Oh well he's not my problem' i said to myself while walking to the bathroom .

I came out of the bathroom and headed towards my room but before I could get in I heard loud voices . It sounded like people arguing . I moved towards the voices and i was right . People arguing but the voices were still too far for me to know who it is . I followed the voices and the closer I got the better I heard .

"You can't be serious adam " raneem said
"Why not! He went to fucking tell his wife that I bought used furniture. That's a lie " Adam yelled .

What the heck . He went to tell his mom . It's not a big deal why is he making it more then what it is . I don't get it . I moved closer to the door to hear the rest of their conversation. 

"Adam don't be silly . He is your brother he wouldn't do that !" Raneem said

'Do what?' I thought

"He told her something small because he just started trusting her mom what happens when he really begins to trust her . He's going to tell her! Then she is going to tell sara !" Adam yelled .

'What? Tell me what?'

" Adam stop worrying I promise I won't let that happen . He's your brother plus even if he does I'll make sure Jenna doesn't open her mouth ." Raneem tries to calm adam

"NO NO NO not even 'if he does' i don't want anyone to know that NO ONE DO U UNDERSTAND!  make sure your son doesn't open his stupid mouth or I will end him ." Adam practically screams .

Oh my god what could he be talking about . I'm so confused but I want to know .

" ok adam can you please go to your wife now . You wouldn't want her to hear you right now right?" Raneem asks .

"Fine but I'm telling you right now warn him or I will ." Adam says

'Ugh she couldn't just let him explain more' I said to myself . I ran to my room and closed the door before adam came out . What was going on . I hope whatever it is kalil tells Jenna maybe she will tell me . She sure does love talking . Whatever it is i want to know . I need to know. My curiosity is speaking for itself  but I don't care .

Minutes later Adam walks in the room and starts to undress. When he sees me he stares and gives me a dirty smile . He started walking towards me slowly . 'No no no no not this " I screamed to myself . I regret not pretending to be asleep when he walked in. I'm so stupid . Then again he would have woken me up to get what he wants .

I pushed him off of me but I guess he just thought that's my way of being shy or telling him I'm enjoying this . He didn't budge , after several kicks and fighting I gave up and let him do as he pleased.  I covered my face with a pillow and cried into it the whole time . I hate myself . I hate him .

When he finished committing a crime he fell asleep and I stayed up all night disgusted by his face . Disgusted by myself . I felt dirty . I cried until the sun came up . This isn't going to be the last time and it obviously wasn't the first .

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-Reema