Why Me?

chapter 10 - farewell

A couple days later .......

  Today is the day I feared most . Today is the day I never wanted to come .
Today my mom is leaving back to America. We are going to get separated........................ again .

My mom only got to stay about three weeks and I only got to spend time with her a couple of days. Now she wants to leave me , I haven't had enough of her to last me until the next time we reunite .

Why so soon mom?

Yesterday I spent the whole day with her . We stayed at my grandparents house , along with other ladies that came to see my mom and say goodbye . I wish we could have done something fun but it was just a simple women gathering but that was enough for me .

Once I got back home , I was glad Adam let me spend the whole day with my mom because as it turns out the next day would be my turn in the kitchen making food for everyone .

That would mean I can not leave the house . Even if that meant I wouldn't be able to take my mom to the airport.  I just wish Adam would have let me go just this once , but that can't happen because his mom said whosever turn it is makes food no matter what and once she says something it goes  rules are rules and I can't break any .

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" your mom told me to tell you bye and to take care of yourself " Adam tells me when he steps in the house .

"Yeah , I've been doing that most of my life." I mumbled holding back my tears .

"You said something? " he asks as if he doesn't know I'm about to burst out crying .

I shake my head no and continue my work in the kitchen. I was pretty fast because this was nothing new to me although I wished things were going to be different after I got married sadly nothing changed .

I've worked all through my childhood making food and feeding everyone , I thought it was time to stop taking that kind of crap from people but some things never change . When it's my days I'm in the kitchen from morning to afternoon. Then back again to make dinner in the early night . Half of the time it's for everyone in the house and half of the time people come over which would come up to twenty to thirty men and women .

My hands were always prickly from washing so many dishes and I usually had bandages on from accidently slicing my fingers with the knifes . There was nothing to change that now it's what if been doing most of my life and from the looks of it this is how I'm going to spend the rest of my life . I'm just a slave to everyone I live with.

Dinner is finally served and I'm so tired . After I eat and clean all the dishes that mounted up in the kitchen,  I decided to take an afternoon nap . I really need to relax for awhile . 

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I wake up to loud knocks on the door .

More like bangs !

What's going on !?

I open the door to see who's responsible for waking me up in the middle of my nap which was the only good part of my day . Extreamly annoyed I got up and burst the door open . Just as I thought adam was standing right there .

"Seriously? You couldn't be any quieter?" I asked him.

I hoping he has a good excuse as to why in the world he would wake me up like there was a fire in the house . For a second I did think there was some kind of emergency until I saw that ugly smirk plastered across his face . Really ? That was all on purpose!

"What am I not allowed in my own room now ?" He said still smirking at me

Oh really trying to play smart with me adam?!

He was still standing in the door way so I simply rolled my eyes and went back to my bed . Going back under the covers it thought maybe I could fall back asleep . Then I realized that's not going to happen when Adam locked the door and started talking .

"To be honest my mom told me you were sleeping and when I tried to come in the door was locked. I dont  like being locked out of my room sarah . Like seriously who locks the door when they sleep alone? what if something happens to u ?"

I kept telling myself Pretend like you can't hear his stupid voice sarah  so I wouldn't be tempted to get up and slap him silly . He took my silence as a clue to keep going .

"Anyways I knocked once and u didn't wake up so I made sure u did , u know ? In my special way.  " he laughed at his own sick joke .

Retard . That was the last straw for me .

"You knocked once ? ONCE! Does anyone wake up on the first knock of there door !" I shouted from on the bed staring deadly at him on the end of it .

"I have very low patients my love" he stated

"First of all dont call me ur "love" second that's no excuse! And to answer ur question ME I sleep with the door locked when I'm alone . I'm actually glad it was locked and u banged on it to wake me up if I left it open u would have played jump rope on top of me . "

I was so agrivated at this point it's one thing to disturb my peace but it's another to not care and be proud about it .

He laughed at what I said and nodded like what I just said was what he really wanted to do .

" I could call you whatever I want considering that fact that ur my wife . You got a point though . I could really see myself doing that ." He smiled getting closer to me

Oh no , I know what this means . I know hat he wants .

I covered myself with the duvet in hope he would get away from me but he simply just pulled them away .

He climbed on top of me and pulled my hands over my head so I couldn't  push him off.

Since I couldn't move my hands I tried kicking him

"Adam I'm tired please get off of me I'm asking nicely " I pleaded with him

But it's true when they say the devil doesn't have a heart . There was no emotion in his yes and he simply didn't care that every time he would sleep with me it would be against my own will , it would be rape and I would have tears in my eyes .

I don't know when the day would come that I'd be okay with someone who I don't love touching me and having every right over me .I just don't know but then again I don't want that day to come it's not who I am , nor who I want to be .

Hovering on top of me he said
"Stop playing hard to get , u were very expensive and costed me a lot of money I don't see as to why I can't get what I want .... " he paused

"Whenever I want sarah "

With that he did get what he wanted , whenever he wanted , even though it was against my own will .

I'm not the one who asked him to marry me . If the choice was mine I'd be in the middle of a park right now , having a picnic with my mom .

Oh my mom is miss her so much.

Definitely NOT on this stupid bed next to this retard who thinks he owns me for God's sake ! Life is just not fair .

I cried myself to sleep that night and every other night for the next couple of weeks . Each day I would find out more and more weird things about Adam , learning to live with his many flaws and habits.  The only thing we have in common is that we both love our mothers  . His mother is kind I just don't see as to why her son came opposite or why she loves him that much . She does have three other sons but everyone knows Adam is her favorite.

.............. How come ?

A/N ......

IT'S BEEN SO LONG SINCE I'VE UPDATED AND I'M SO SORRY FOR THAT .
but I'm here now and I hope u guys like this chapter please vote and comment tell me what u think ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

~REEMA