"What do you mean I don't need it anymore ? Who are you to judge that ?" I asked getting agrivated.
"I mean I broke it and threw it out darling and in case you have forgotten I'm your husband . Your sweet and caring husband I must say ."
NO NO NO NO this isn't happening, I knew something was off but I never would have thought Adam put his hands on my belongings. Not that I wasn't used to my things being broken , stolen or ripped . I've lived with the kind of people that would jump at the chance to push me off a cliff but I'm married now , everything has changed . The least I should get is a little privacy, actually up until a minute ago I thought I had that .
Calming myself I asked Adam why he would do such a thing , he laughed .
"Well like I said I'm your husband I can do whatever I want sarah . Its not the end of the world ,it's just a stupid loud speaker . "
He seriously didn't care , Adam didn't care that he hurt my feelings. I don't even think he has any feeling , but that doesn't mean he can go around hurting mines . I didn't even do anything to him . I'm officially taking back every time I told myself to cut Adam some slack or try and be happy with this psycho.
Ugly psycho must I say . Hahahhaha nah I have to stop saying that . Honestly I'm just tired and I didn't wanna argue with Adam knowing that won't bring back my speaker , I just slept .
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The middle of the night came and it was getting hard to sleep . That would mostly because I'm on the floor instead of the bed , there's no way I'm sleeping next to Adam on the bed . Last thing I want is to go to jail for murdering my husband in his sleep . Although that doesn't sound like a bad thing I'm still too young for jail , so I woke up to drink water maybe then it will be easier to sleep. That didn't help and my back is starting to really hurt me .
Knowing I have no other choice I slowly climbed in bed . Hopefully Adam won't notice me and in the morning I'll be up before him so there's no proof I was ever here . Yeah pretty good idea .
That's when I was proven wrong . Adams arms wrap around my waist and he burries his head in my neck . Before I can push him off and go back to my original position on the floor I was all of a sudden seeing comfortable, Adam speaks .
"Im sorry about your speaker Sarah , I'll buy you a new one ." He apologized . I didn't reply because he was serious and it really did seem like he is sorry . Instead I just relaxed in his arms and slept .
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Two months later ...
Nothing has been different. Every time I think , or have a little hope that maybe just maybe Adam will open up to me and show more love or respect , he just shuts me out . Our relationship is just dull and I'm not liking it but nor am I hating it . That's what scares me the most , that I just don't care . Meaning Adam can be out the whole day and night and I won't even ask why . Instead I've just learned to let him be so he can do the same .
It's been two months and I cannot see us getting closer , or changing this relationship. I feed him , he leaves , doesn't come home until late , than sleeps . I figured this is just a phase . Maybe he will wake up one day and make Me food , or buy me flowers , or maybe just maybe Adam will wake up one day and thank me , but until then I'll just be here working to please my so called "husband".
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"Sarah are you okay , do you need anything? " Raneem , Adams mom asked me
"No I'm fine , I think I'm just going to take a nap ." I told her
"Okay honey , call me if you need anything " she smiled
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Why Me?
RomanceRisking all her happiness and the man she loves for her parents. Sara does what she thinks is right just so her parents are happy . Begining with An arranged marriage to an abusive man, followed along with many surprises .She finds herself regrettin...
