Why Me?

chapter 9 - the past and him

One week later ........

  The past couple of days went by like any other . I wake up , eat , sit , visit friends and family and sleep . Nothing was changing for the better . The only thing that would make my day is calling my mom and talking to her for hours .

With each day that went by I found out more about Adams flaws . He does thngs that scare me . Things that make me think that he just might be bipolar.  Something about him was off , I just couldn't put my finger on it . He would be okay with me for a minute,  then change into an obsessive beast the next . I have no idea what I'm going to do , but one thing is for sure ......... I want nothing to do with him .

Other then my weird husband and nosey sister in law,  life wasn't all that bad . I'm glad I finally have my own stuff , my own room and I have a say in the everyday decisions I make in my life . It's the tiny things that are making a difference for me . Even though I don't love it here I was so sick of my life before I got married  .

Before I start thinking about the past I grab my headphones and ipod . Maybe some music could help . I jumped onto my bed and lay down facing the plain white ceiling. This is going to be a long walk down memory lane .

I was born in America and lived with my family until the age of eight years . That's when I got sent to the middle east along with my older sister Mina . At the time I didn't know what was going on . Why did my parents send me away ? Why couldn't I stay ? No one answered any of my questions and I was too young to understand on my own .

I stayed two years in the horrible poor parts of the country with my mom's side of the family . I lived two years no child should have lived . Actually I lived a horrible life . Period . Those two years were just especially hard because I was too young, the village was poor and my mom's side of the family is mean , they were so mean to me and didn't even pity me .

I suffered having to walk to a school that is miles and miles away from the house is stayed in . It would take climbing up big rocks and walking across high hills to get to my school but I did it each and everyday . I would go days with only eating hard bread and drinking water . If it was a good day I'd get to eat hot bread and drink a small cup of milk straight from the cow . Literally.

My mom's sisters would hit me whenever they felt like it and would steal the money my mom sends for me and Mina.  Not long after we settled there me and Mina would get into fights . I was just a child and I wanted someone to take care of me . I had abusive aunts , a greedy grandmother , my cousins were always taking my stuff and ripping up my clothes , and now my own sister was turning against me because she was only looking after herself . Even tho my uncle Moe tried his best to be kind to me and help me out , by telling me stories and always being there for me it wasn't the same as having a mother or at least a good sister . My aunts did everything in their power to make Mina on their side and leave me and that's what happened .

Poverty,  starvation,  depression,  I went through it all . Each day I would lose a part of the girl that was full of life . That happy child.  Yet a tiny part of me would slowly come back once every month when my mom calls and I get the privilege of hearing her voice . Even if my aunts would hit me for answering the phone and barely let me say hi , that was still enough for me as an abandoned child I took what I got .

Those two years ended and I was so thankful when my dad made the decision for me and Mina to go stay with his mother.  Which meant we were moving to the capital of the country . The better part of the country and it is more modernized . Anything is better then what I had to go through before .

Things finally got a little better once we lived with my other grandmother . She was really annoying for an old lady but she had a kind heart and felt bad for us .
One year went by and my parents decided they wanted Mina to go back to America to help them out with my younger sisters and stuff . I didn't want that to happen in didn't want to be alone but I had no choice . She was older , they wanted her not me . So she left me and I had to live another year with my dad's side of the family .

Once that year finished I went back to my mom's side of the family . They lived in a better house now and a different part of the country but they are evil and I didn't want to go back to them . I had no choice but to go wherever my parents decided .

Apparently they were protecting me from his threats . From my first love . His name is Adel and yes I fell in love at the age of twelve but no one loved me so the second he claimed to have feelings for me I believed him and gave him my heart . I trusted him when I really shouldn't have . After talking to him for a year word spread because he talked to his father about me and someone heard . My mom imeaditlly demanded I go back to living with her family . That's when each one started saying everything they can to make me hate Adel.  I was young and stupid believing everything they said . I began to dislike him even though he did everything in his power to contact me and tell me they are filling my head with lies . I was still in love with him but i didnt knkw what to think . I was so alone and had no one to open my heart to.

Four years went by and I lived a life filled with problems and people that hate me .  Things got even harder when my parents sent my other sister to live with me . I guess they took it as an habit to send their daughters away . I became a mother to her and took responsibility of raising her . That came along with many many problems.  We were kids and we had no one to be on our side or help us . I would cry myself to sleep each night , day after day I'd pray to God that  things change for the better . That day came when a huge problem happened between us and one of my aunts she hit us and would always make problems . Everything just got so out of had and my uncle took us back to the capital, to my grandmother. Little did I know i was getting married .

Huge problems happened because Adel loved me and started going crazy because my mom said she won't let me marry him . I wanted him I really did and I could have stood up to my mom and tell her I want to marry him instead of adam but I didn't do that . Even though my dad wanted me to agree to marrying him My mom didn't want Adel and I followed her every word . He tried talking to me , his dad tried his mom tried too . They all tried to convince me to agree and fight for our love but I couldn't bring myself to do such a thing and go against my mom .

So I got engaged to Adam . Someone I didn't know , didn't want , and never saw . For my mom . I didn't want someone that just married me because I'm an American citizen and i could help him get a greencard , Adel loved me and his dad was already getting him into American and he didn't want anything but me to be his wife . Without getting anything in return like adam wanting to go into America but I just did what my mom wanted and that was that. After everything was official I found out something ............ something horrible, my worst fear .

One week before my wedding day I find out that Adel is going to engage one of my sisters.  The person I loved or thought I loved wants to marry my sister since he could get me . My heart broke I couldn't believe it . My mom didnt go crazy when my dad said my other sister is going to get engaged to adel . Apparently after i got engaged she agreed to give them my sister if they give a really large amount of money . They agreed just to prove a point to my parents that they could get one of us . She betrayed me by agreeing to let my sister marry him and not me . That's when I did something that took every ounce of bravery in me . I called him .

I told him there are millions of girls out there in the world not only my sister . He can't do that to me . He said I wouldn't fight for him so when his dad brought up the idea he didn't mind it . He said he'll remember me by having her . I begged him not to do it but he didn't budge . They got engaged,  made it official and I was getting married less then a week later . I had to face the truth . I had to get along with my life .

Now here I am . Married to adam .

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I woke up to the sound of adam walking into the room .
Did I fall asleep?

My head hurt from crying so much . Thinking about the past really effected me . I really have suffered .

A/n******

Yay!! We finally get to know a little about saras past! What do u guys think !? I feel bad for her:( please comment and vote please ! I love u guys ♡♡♡♡♡

~REEMA