Why Me?

chapter 5 - sex or rape?

Special shout out to @NHeartless and MillenniumLint for believing in me ♡♡♡

□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□□

'Get ready huh?.... she wishes ! I'm just going to sit here and see what happens'

I folded my hands over my chest and waited patiently . Maybe Adam won't want to do anything today. Maybe he will be kind and let me choose when we take that drastic step . 'Oh please sara who are you tying to fool,this is a guy we are talking about a stupid horny man, there no way he would let down an offer of sex' 'you mean RAPE!'

I was arguing with myself like a crazy woman , I think it was the lack of sleep I got in the past week but whatever it was all I knew was that I'm scared . Really scared of whats going to happen next. I put all these thoughts in the back of my head and picture my mom. Seeing her eased all my pain . Then I opened my eyes and saw the door knob turn . My eyes widened and my muscles tensed again .

I wanted to hide under the bed or just dissappear but it was too late , adam walked in and shut the door behind him . 'Oh great' he was grinning from ear to ear and standing by the door awkwardly . 'Does he ever stop grinning so evilly!?"

Slowly he walked towards me and sat right next to me . He was too close and I didn't like it so I scooted over a bit and looked away . He realized what I did and immediately closed the little space between us by moving closer . 'Wow and i was thinking just maybe you would be shy pshhh'

"Do you want me to help you take off your dress?" He asked "no" I uttered
"Okay that's fine" he said while getting up and opening the door . "Hayla....." he called and Hayla walked in "can you please help sara out of her dress?" She nodded "I'll be outside until your done" he left thank god .

I knew who she was and I was pleased he called her . I didn't want him to help me out. Hayla was related to adam his cousin or something like that . She helped me out of the huge dress and handed me a short white sleeping gown from my suitcase. Something told me Layla had a hand in that!

I looked at the small peice of fabric she handed me in disgust . She noticed my expression and smiled at me . "Go ahead and wear it I will leave so you don't feel uncomfortable" she started walking away "Hayla thank you for helping me" she stopped and turned around . "No problem, but I'd hurry up if I were you someone outside is getting antsy" giggling she hurried out of the room and I quickly got dressed .

When I was finished I sat on the bed and coverd myself with the duvet. Seconds later Adam walked in and I couldn't help but notice he had something white in his hands . That's when I remembered what Layla said "you guys have sex on a white sheet and once your blood goes on it and it shows your virginity was taken he then shows his mom the sheet and you show your mom after that , word spreads and everyone finds out you were a virgin. "

Adam took my hand in his and pulled me to my feet . He stared at me then started checking me out from head to toe. I felt so naked with his burning stares . He fixed the bed and spred the sheet until it was covering most of the bed.

My heart was beating out of my chest . I didn't know what to do , my whole body froze but I knew I had to do what was best. For my reputation, and for my parents to be proud . I knew I had to do whatever he told me but that didn't mean I was going to enjoy even one second of any of it . I just had to get it over with.

He lifted me up bridle style and placed me gently on the bed, I lay there waiting for his next move and he guickly took charge and started kissing my neck . His hands romed my body and squeezed my thighs. I got cold and felt a shiver go down my spine . He lifted his head up and looked into my eyes. He looked some what concerned? I think .

"Don't be scared of me...... I promise I'll be gentle" he said in almost a whisper.
I nodded and he continued talking "you are my wife now, and we're going to be spending many, many years together , trust me?"
'No no no no did he just ask me to trust him? I don't even know the man!' I thought.
I do give him credit though , at least he's trying to make this horrible situation a little better for me. I covered my eyes. "Ok but can we please hurry up and get this over with?" I said feeling embarrassed. He laughed and I have to admit his laugh was very sexy.

I left my hands by my side while he continued kissing and caressing my neck . I just let him do what he wanted because the faster this is done the happier I'll be . His hand went down to my love handles and further down to my ass. I gasped when he squeezed it and spanked me playfully. Each time I gasp I could feel him smile against my neck while sucking and biting the sensitive skin near my ear . To me it was fine I was still uncomfortable considering the fact that I was making out with a man I've never seen until today . But it was different and kind of fun. That was until.........

Until he tugged at the fabric of my night gown . I knew what that meant and i didn't want to continue. I grabbed the ends of my mini dress and pulled it down but that didn't stop him from pulling the whole thing off of me in a split second . I was fully naked under his body and I could hear his breathing wasn't steady at all . He sounded like an animal and I am his prey.

Scared, embarrassed ,insecure everything horrible you could possibly feel at such a young age filled me up . He slipped his fingers down and onto my skin . He was touching the moister on me and it was like he was looking for something . "Ok baby you are wet , now It's the fun part" he said to me . 'You mean the worst part you criminal'

He climbed on top of me and opened my legs wide open . "This might hurt a little " he told me while he adjusted himself and was seconds away of thrusting himself inside of me . I couldn't and didn't want to see him , or what he was about to do so I grabbed a pillow and covered my face with it . That's when I felt the pain it was horrifying.

Adam stopped the second most of his cock was in me . I was screaming in pain under the pillow and didn't care who would hear me . "Shhhhh the house is full of people" he said. How dare he tell me to "shhhhh" and I'm in this pain ! I exploded
"Shut up and get out of me!!!" screamed at him. I dont think he cared about my anger because he started moving in and out of me . The feeling was so forien.
"Perfect.......right...... there" he said breathing heavily. I'm guessing the blood came out because he stopped and lay down next to me . I was crying in the whole process and didn't want to see adam ever again in my life .

In that moment I knew I would never be the same ever again .
He took my innocence .

A/N

Thanks to everyone that is reading my book! I was thinking of taking it down actually but I got a couple good reviews that made me think twice so I think I just might continue . Don't forget to vote and comment plz tell me what you think . You guys mean the world to me .

~REEMA