Rapid Days Behind the Bars of Life

Chapter 12

I've been distant, with everyone. Well, the only people in my life right now are Jo and my mom and I've been distant with them.

It feels weird connecting with people, it feels different, like everyone is trying to fuck me over. It's been a week and I still haven't gotten over it. I don't now where to begin to get over it. Should I even get over it? Kaiwa is the only one that tried reaching out to me. She called so many times, left so many voicemails and texts and I just ignored them all because I don't want to face her.

Shameik however, has made no effort, no calls, nothing. I guess when he said, "Fuck you Jonah! Fuck you!" He meant it.

I guess I'm kind of being an ass though because, I claimed Kaiwa like she was property, I materialized her and I know that was wrong but it's my pride and ego that's stopping me from apologizing.

"Knock Knock, can I come in?" My mom said, as she opened the door anyway.

"Well, you're already in so I can't really say no now can I"

"Of course you can't sweetie, I'm your mother I'll come in whether you like it or not."

"I don't like it"

"Sounds like a personal problem"

I laughed a little. It may seem like she was being rude but that was our kind of humor towards each other and we know the difference of being playful and actually being rude.

"Now honey, someone's downstairs waiting for you."

"What? Who?"

"It's Shameik"

I groaned and said, "I don't wanna see him, tell him that."

"Go tell him yourself."

That was her way if telling me to go talk to him. If only she knew why I wasn't talking to him.

I walked downstairs, slowly because I really didn't want to see him. Unfortunately, there he was staring at me with big green distressed eyes.

I stopped halfway down the stairs and said to him in a very stern tone."What do you want?"

"I.." He stopped and stared down, wiping his palms on the sides of his pants.

"If you're not going to talk, you can leave."

I was being really mean but I couldn't stop myself. Once I saw him I was occupied with seemingly insatiable rage.

"I'm sorry." He said and quickly walked out.

I quickly raced down the rest of the stairs and followed him outside.

He was walking really fast, as though I was a serial killer he was trying to get away from.

"Hey Stop!" I yelled out to him, and he halted without turning around.

"You don't get to come to my house and interrupt my wallowing to give me some half-assed apology, dick face." I said, with a shaky voice. I was at the brink of tears but I held it back.

"Turn around, you bastard!"

"You know, you have insulted me in so many ways." He said as he turned around.

"That's what happens when you're a piece of shit." I said, still insulting him.

"Jonah, I'm sorry, I'm so fucking sorry. I'm sorry I lied to you. I'm sorry I fucked your girl. I'm sorry I'm a dick face, a piece of shit, a fucker, a bastard and whatever else you have in mind. I'm sorry for being such a fuck up." He stared to sob then said, "I'm... so sorry."

"Shut up pussy and Kaiwa is not my girl." I said and gave him a hug.

He started crying really hard and squeezing my sweater as we hugged.

We looked like gay lovers. Then it started raining, which made it so dramatic.