A Public Affair (A Harry Style Fan Fiction)

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Harry’s POV

We were on our tour bus on our way to Denver. I didn’t get much sleep because she was haunting my mind. It was absolutely insane that she was on my mind all the time. I didn’t even bloody know her! For the short period of time that I spent with her, I liked her personality and how she didn’t take herself seriously. I really thought it was going to be different with her but she ended up kissing me. Why did she have to make things complicated? Couldn’t we just goof off as friends? I messed up big time; I shouldn’t have let us kiss. I knew what would happen. She would pretend to have feelings for me just so she could a taste of the celebrity life. Pretending, that was what people seemed to do around me and she wasn’t an exception. You need to get her out of your mind. I knew that but it didn’t register in my head. How could she affect me this way? I was pretty sure she was doing fine with me out of the picture but why did I feel bad? I should be going out every day, enjoying my life but I couldn’t. I was mad. I was mad at myself for letting my guards down, letting her near me. I was mad because I couldn’t have her, I wouldn’t let myself have her because it was all a scheme. She was just another girl. I had to keep repeating this sentence in my head. I rolled around on my back, looking at the ceiling. I felt drained. I felt like even if I slept the whole day I would be tired. I wasn’t going to lie; I had been moody for the past few weeks. I felt like I was letting down the lads and the whole touring crew. I just wanted to shake it off. People assumed that you have this good life that everything is just perfect but the truth is, it could get ugly. We had bad days, me more than anyone in the band. I loudly sighed before passing my hand in my curls and climbed down off my bunk. I was making my way to the bathroom at the end of the tour bus. Liam and Niall were talking but immediately stopped their chat when they saw me. I didn’t even want to ask what was going on. I got in the bathroom and brushed my teeth and my face before putting on some clothes. I looked at myself in the mirror. I looked like a walking zombie. I had big bags under my eyes and I felt like I was 34 years old even though I was only 19. I got out of the bathroom and let myself down on the couch beside Lou. She was playing with Lux. I got my phone out of my pocket and scrolled down Twitter. This was my daily routine; I got up, changed in the bathroom before logging onto Twitter. This was my way of stalking Liz. I found her Twitter user by our fans, speaking of fans; they didn’t go easy on her. They treated her like shit, insinuating that she was the cause of why Larry would never happen or that she was only using me for money and fame. They were thinking just like me which was scary. She had been out last night. There were a couple of pictures of her with some guy. I scrolled down the pictures. There was a mob of photographers trying to snap pictures of her and the man. I felt pure rage growing inside of me. I knew we didn’t have a thing going on but she was already with someone else. She was already onto her next prey. I was just another man for her. I felt my jaw clenching and my breathing was heavier. I just wanted to throw my phone against the wall.

‘’What’s wrong Harry?’’ Lou asked, sitting beside me. She probably heard my heavy breathing. I turned around as I locked my phone.

‘’Nothing.’’ I replied looking at the wall. Nothing was going on. That was the problem; nothing was going on between us. She looked at me a bit confused before putting Lux down.

‘’Hazz, you know you can tell me about it.’’ She said giving me a reassuring smile. How could I even tell her what was going on when I didn’t have a clue? She started to bite her nails. ‘’Is it about Liz?’’

‘’I feel like I fucked up big time, Lou. I shouldn’t have let her get near me. She was bad news from the get go, from the moment I saw her in that clothing store.’’ I said passing my hand in my hair. She was bad news and I knew it.

‘’Hazz, you will have to trust someone eventually. You can’t just push people away like that. I really like her, maybe if you two talk and sort it out…’’