He hates me... | Hunter Rowland

Waking up.

-FLASHBACK-

"We will always be best friends don't worry Maddie"Mark smiled at me as we walked into our first day of 3rd grade.

"What if something happens?"

"Nothing will happen we will always be together"

I just smiled picking a chair next to him in the class room.

-NEXT FLASH BACK-

"Maddie?"Mark asked

"Yea?" I turned to him

"If something ever happens to us where we can't see eachother anymore,I want you to keep this"he smiled handing me a necklace that the moon and the stars on it "it means a lot to me"

I smiled looking at it "it's cute"

"But we're only in 7th grade nothing would happen to us" I laughed

"Your probably right but just in case?"

"Ok we should probably get to bed"

-END OF FLASH BACKS-

I woke up in a hospital bed.

I sat up quickly looking for Mark

"It was just a dream."I whispered

Marks parents,my parents and brother,and Hunter were all here though

"Glad your awake" my mom brushed hair out of my face

"I'm not..." I frowned

She just gave me a weak smile,I could tell everyone in the room had been crying

"Maddie you were in a coma for 4 days"she hugged me tightly

"I thought I was going to lose you"

I hugged her back thinking

"Where's Mark?"I said without thinking

"He isn't here."my mom sat down

"Then where is he?" I said trying to be hopeful

"Mark passed away four days ago sweetie"Marks mom looked at me,trying to smile but she couldn't .

I wouldn't be able to if I was her either.

My eyes were blurry,but I stood up and walked out of the room to the room Mark was supposed to be in.

Reality hit me hard when I walked inside and it was empty.it was like my heart shattered.I dropped to the floor,the cold tile.I crawled into the corner of the room and cried and cried for at least 20 minutes until Hunter came in.

I looked at him then back down at my knees.

"Maddie you need to get out of here,this isn't healthy." He said softly lifting me to my feet

I stood silently for a moment looking at the bed "I wish it was me" I said quietly

"What?" Hunter turned to me from looking out the window

"I said,I wish it was me,I wish I died instead." I said emotionless

"Maddie if I ever hear you say that again I'll-" he walked over to me

"Don't,just don't,it's true,I wish it was me,now I'm going to get more hate,people will say he died because of me,people will tell me to kill myself,if I could wish for anything right now...it would be that I never woke up,that only Mark woke up."

"Maddie if I ever find out you hurt yourself in anyway because of stupid haters,I won't ever let you be alone,I'll never forgive myself"

I starred off "I need to leave ,I need to go home." I sighed

-SKIP GOING HOME-

When I got home I picked up my phone and laid on my bed my notifs were completely blown up,all my friends,family,and fans sending me long paragraphs thinking I wouldn't wake up,or praying I would.

Then on Instagram a bunch of posts from Marks fans hoping I was ok.

I posted the last picture I had of me and Mark on my phone "I'm fine everyone,thanks,I just feel completely empty,I will always miss you Mark,best friends forever"

I tapped post and cried my self to sleep that night.

When I woke up the next day I looked around hoping this was all just a terrible nightmare and that Mark was still next to me,he wasn't.

I just sat there,I changed into leggings and a plain blue shirt and laid down,I sat and hugged one of Marks sweaters,it still smelled like him.

Days went on like this.I hadn't eaten in almost 12 days,only drank water or juice.

It's not that I didn't want to eat,it's that I couldn't,when I sat down to eat it made me sick,I couldn't go to the funeral or burying,because I knew I wouldn't be able to let go of him if I saw him.

One day it was around 5 pm, I got up and I just went for a walk I don't no why,but my mom let me because I hadn't been out in a while,I had on leggings and a Nike sweater,it was still summer it was just cold because it had just rained,I walked and walked until I was completely lost,I didn't know where I was .

I didn't care either.i looked at my phone "9 o'clock " I sighed

I went to turn around to go back or call my mom to get me.

I felt hands around my neck,I pulled away and sprinted until couldn't anymore,I was in Mario's neighborhood now,so I was at least close to home.

I looked and the man that had choked me and ran after me this whole time was,a boy with brown hair and blue eyes,he wasn't tall,or short just average he looked my age.

He was pretty cute,we just stared at eachother for a while.

He came closer "why did you do that?" I looked at him

"It's my job"he shrugged

I just turned to keep walking but I felt a sharp pain in my head,everything went black.again.

A/N

Hm who is this new guy?well maybe you'll find out next chapter when she wakes up again.btw sorry for the cliffhanger