The Army, The Player, and I

You are not leaving me

We stood outside the house awaiting nervously. I saw Tyler in front of his house and Kerr in front of hers. I wanted nothing more than to be with Gavin right now. Oh my god...Gavin. Unfortunately I couldn't think anymore of him as the officers marched in. He walked around inspecting every male, checking the height and muscle mass. Finally after everything, they stood in the middle of our block.

"We take the lot." He shouted and I covered my mouth. Tyler's mom reached out and hugged him tightly and Kerr and I jogged over group hugging. Tears were falling freely before I remembered Gavin.

"I need to go." I whispered and Kerr nodded understanding. I sprinted to my car and got in. I broke the record and got to his house in five minutes flat. People were walking around the neighborhood as I drove but I pulled out to his mansion and quickly got out. The door was wide open and I let myself in, running upstairs. His door was shut so I flung it open only to see Gavin's back to me and him standing, looking in the mirror.

"Five. That's when I first saw you. Your hair was in a ponytail and you clutched a princess crown on the side of the road. You were crying and I remember walking over and you pushing me away, telling me how much you hated boys. You had so much anger for a four year old. Twelve. We were in middle school together when our rivalry started. We were pitted on different soccer teams and we were both clearly the best. I couldn't stand losing to a girl nonetheless my best . So I took matters into my own hands. I started to like you. I tried everything to be near you but you picked Tyler over me. You worshipped your best friend, at his every beg and calling you were there. God how I hated you. Fifteen. That's when I lost my virginity and I became a player. I never wanted another girl to rule my life. Apparently neither did you. You slept around, I slept around. And we hated each other. Eighteen. You hit me with your car. But with that car you also hit something else. You hit my heart. I hated to admit it but Alexa Howell you made me fall in love with you. I dated Kerr for you! But you never felt the same way. You used me as a game. That's all I ever was to you, and that's all I'll ever be. I'm so done being the hero. I got drafted. I'll be gone. I'll be away from you." By the time he finished, I had tears running down my face, my hands shaking to hug him, kiss him senseless, take me back. He finally turned around to stare at me and I stopped. My heart was beating faster then ever, my throat was dry and I couldn't look away from him. He was always my everything he was always the one I needed.

Three steps. That was all it took for me to close the gap between us. I'm losing the bet. But I don't care, I'm done too. He needs to know how I feel. I placed my hands on his shirt, coiling the material around my knuckles, pulling him close and smashing our lips together. He stood there for a few seconds obviously trying to resist but soon, he pulled his hand up to my cheek, kissing me back. Our lips moved together frantically, both of us searching for what we needed. He slipped his hands down to my butt lifting me up and carrying me to the bed, lying me down gently. I rolled over so I was on top and I felt something salty on my lips and realized that my tears were mingling with Gavin's. I broke away from the kiss, both of us breathing hard.

"You are not leaving me. Not again." I whispered, clutching his hair tightly. He leaned down, brushing our lips.

"I don't have a choice baby." I pressed my lips to his again, clutching his shirt, running my hand up and down his hard chest. I pulled away again, staring at his face as he kept his eyes closed, savoring the moment.

"When do you leave?" I asked. He opened his eyes to stare at me.

"In a week." I looked down.

"When do you come back?"

"I don't know. Hopefully before graduation." I leaned up, kissing him once, twice, then a third time before falling back on his pillow.

"I wanted this so bad you know? I refused for you to hurt me again, to leave me again. So I protected myself. But I couldn't help it. You walked back into my life, just where you belonged. And then you dated Kerr. Like I was nothing to you. Which what I thought I was, nothing." He looked at me softly, before getting up.

"Then that's it. You were never nothing to me. You were everything. Now I'm leaving, I might never see you again." There was pain clearly etched in his voice so I got up and walked over to him. I tugged him by his shirt so he turned around to face me. I was grateful for my heels because I was able to be somewhat eye level with him. I took his face in my hands and pressed my forehead to his.

"Now you listen to me Gavin Lahar. You are going to leave, do whatever the hell you need to do, then you are going to get on a flight and fly back home to me. You are not allowed to die. Because I am so goddamn in love with you, and I need you. I need you in my life, I needed you in my past, in my present and in my future. I love you too much to ever let you go again. I'm sorry for the pain I have put you through. But baby, I love you. And I can't ever stop loving you." With that he brought his lips back to mine and kissed me heavily, as his hands moved under my shirt to grasp my bare back.

"I love you too." He whispered against my lips.

*One Week Later*
I stood alone in the airport. Which wasn't unusual. After I told Gavin I loved him, his parents came in and made me leave so they could have family time. I haven't seen Gavin since. We texted sparingly, only to confirm that I would meet him at the airport. I didn't know when I would see him again. But him going away, with me knowing that he loves me and I him, makes me have hope that it can keep him alive.

I saw messy brown hair and my heart immediately skipped a beat. I jogged over to him and skidded to a stop. He looked at me.

"You look handsome." I noticed his uniform. Tears immediately started welling up.

"Thanks." He said. He looked at me, analyzing me.

"Goddamn it jackass." I whispered before moving in to hug him tightly. He immediately picked me up and held me to him tightly and I rested my head on his shoulder. He pulled back and kissed me softly.

"I'll see you soon." I said when we pulled back. He nodded, setting me down but not letting go of my waist.

"I love you so much Alexa." He said.

"I love you too. Stay alive for me." I was a hot mess but I kissed him again and waved goodbye as he walked through security.

"I love you Gavin Lahar..."

The End.

Don't worry there will be an epilogue.