You are strong. You are kind. You are loved. You are you

Hushabye baby

NICOLE's SISTERS UP TOP
NICOLE's POV
"Jolon" diani hissed

"Go to sleep and close you eyes and dream of broken butterflies" Angel sang

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"That tore their wings against a thorn
You know the pain thet they have borne" Christopher sang

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"Silver metal, shine so bright
Scarlet blood that feels so right" Jolon sang

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"You guys knock it off"' Taya said

"Dream of that blood trickling down
And wake up just before you drown " chayton sang

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"The moonlights shining off your tears
As you bleed out your own worst fears" diami

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She hesitated but she sang...."So tonight when you start to cry
Whisper the cutters lullaby"diani sang

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"Hushabye baby, you're almost dead
You don't have a Pulse and your pillows red" aleshanee choked

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"Your family hates you and your friends let you bleed" aiyita whispered

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"Sleep tight with a knife cause that's all you need" Aiyana sang quietly

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"Hushabye baby broken and scarred
You didn't know life would be this hard" Taya sighed

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"Time to end the pain you hid so well
And down will come baby straight back to hell" I finally sang....they all stared at me shocked

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My eyes turned back to brown I smirked, my eyes flashed back to a light black "How do you know that? That was a secret...you weren't suppose to know that, who told the lullaby"

"Well Angel you started it" Taya hissed. "And It shall remain a secret" I whispered, they all looked at me curious "you guys can't be serious?" I asked I said "if no one told the poem.... And it was a secret...it was moms favorite poem that she had made up... The first part was the oldest...Angel's..the second part was Christopher's...third was jolon's...the 4th was chayton's...the 5th was diami's...the 6th was diani's.....the 7th was mine aleshanee...the 8th was aiyita's...the 9th was Aiyana...the 10th was Taya's and the 11th was...." Aleshanee trailed off as jolon whispered "no..."

"Nicole" I smirked they all gasped "our baby sister" taya squealed "I finally got to meet my little sister" she screamed as Angel picked me up "oh my I missed you so much" he said "I've missed you guys too" I smiled

"Thought you weren't suppose to come back until your 18? What'd you do?" Chris asked "how'd you get those tattoos?" They asked "I have my ways. I snuck out a lot, I got arrested" they looked at me shocked "whoa..didn't expect that" I shrugged "what for?" They asked "pot" I said "ahh like ma and pa" I looked at them confused "they did pot?"

"Everyday. Daddy knew how to control it, it was just mom. It got so bad after you left. 3 years ago the day before she left she went crazy while dad went into town. She told us guys to go down stairs and when we did she locked us down there. She drug the girls upstairs and threw taya off the balcony she lived. She poured a boiling hot bottle off water on Aiyana she lived, she took a torch and held Aiyita down and rolled the torch over her legs she lived. She cut all of aleshanee's hair off. But it grew back in like a year. And diani She had our wild dog attack her. The dog had to be put down she served 21 months in jail. Before that by the time dad came back he beat the shit outta her until she was on her last breath. He called the cops but he made us a promise that he'd come back one day. For 6 months dad was seeing another woman and mom had found out and went crazy 'I thought he loved me!' 'Maybe if I kill all you kids he'll love me more!' 'If I can get rid of 1 I can get rid of 10 more!' She was just crazy. Dads girlfriend picked us up and spoiled us and had us move and made sure we had no contact wth mom but always with dad. She's like a mom to us" Christian said

"I'm so sorry" he shook his head "not your fault baby girl..so, how's life?" He asked "rough, stressed out" I said shaking my head. "Hey maybe tomorrow you can see the kids" I raised an eyebrow "kids?" I asked "were all parents. We're irresponsible/responsible but hey we can take care of them" diami said lighting a blunt. I shook my head "I'm gonna go to bed" I said hugging them once more "night" I said.

My room was the one closest to the attic. I pulled the steps down and climbed up. I opened the attic window and climbed out onto the roof. I sat on the very top and lit a joint. I looked over to my side and noticed Ryan. "Whoa how'd you get up here?" I asked weirded out. "I have my ways" he smiled. I giggled "do you want one?" I asked "nah that's okay. I stopped a couple years ago" I nodded then froze.

"How'd you know where I lived?" I asked "well not to be creepy but I see these girls everywhere on the streets and you look exactly like them" I nodded "do you want to come in?" I asked "sure it's a bit chilly?" I laughed "true it's getting a bit cool out" we climbed inside my room and sat and talked all day about random things. Things could change for better or worse who knows