~DARA’S POV~
I don’t know what made me do it or why I’m doing it but the words just poured. Maybe it has something to do with the way his voice sounded. Maybe it has something to with the way he shouted at me or the way he asked me why I’m avoiding him. Maybe it’s simply because I can’t contain it anymore. Maybe it’s because I missed him. Or maybe because it’s just the truth.
I saw him stopped in his tracks, his body all-stiff. I took another deep breath. It’s now or never.
“I’m scared of how my heart goes wild everytime I see you. I’m scared of how I feel happy everytime I see you or everytime you smile or laugh. I’m scared of how I feel so worried about you. I’m scared of how I wanted to pull Sulli’s hair everytime you talk to her. I’m scared of how I can’t keep you off my mind. I’m scared of how I always look for your presence, your warmth beside me every night. I’m scared of how I always forget about Jae or that I have a boyfriend when I’m with you. I’m scared of how I’m missing you so much that I just want to throw myself at you and never let go. I’m scared of how your face always pops into my mind. I’m scared of how I. . . of how I wanted to feel your lips on mine again. I’m scared of how everytime I’m with Jae, I wanted to be with you instead. And most of all, I’m scared to hurt Jae. I love him, Jiyong and I don’t want to hurt him. That’s why I’m avoiding you. I’m just scared that I’ll give in. . .”
I took an unsteady breath as tears started falling. I looked up as I heard strong and determined footsteps. He was marching towards me, wearing a hard look. He grabbed me by the shoulders and pushed me against the wall, his lips conquering mine.
I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him back hungrily. God, I missed him so much! I missed the way his body was pressed on mine. I missed the feel of his hands. I missed the sensations brought by his touch. But this is wrong!
He bit my lower lip lightly, sending tingling sensations all over my system. His tongue went in, brushing lightly and tingly against the roof of my mouth, my tongue and along the edges of my teeth.
“I’m really out of the picture, huh?”
Buckets of ice washed over me as I heard Jae’s voice. I pushed Jiyong away lightly and stared wide-eyed with fear at Jae.
“J-jae…” I whispered. He shook his head and turned away. “Jae, wait!” I called, running after him.
What have I done again? He didn’t deserve to get hurt like this. I kept on calling his name while a part of me was silently begging Jiyong to follow me and stop me from running after Jae.
“How will you explain that, Dara?” Jae suddenly stopped and faced me.
“Jae. . . .” I mumbled. It was all I could come up with.
“If you wanted to break up with me, you could have just told me! You don’t have to go and-!”
“No! I protested. “It’s not like that. I don’t want to break up with you”
“Then why?!”
I wasn’t able to answer him.
“You said you love me! And I believed you!”
“I do!”
“Kiss me, then”
“J-jae. . .?!” I gasped, stepping back.
“If what you say ist rue, kissing me would be an easy thing to do”
“Jae, I. . .”
Guilt. Pain. Pity. They spread through my body the moment I saw the pain in his eyes. He looked so broken that I just wanted to hurt myself, torture myself. It’s not right for someone like him to be in pain like this. And the moment I saw a tear fell from one of his eyes, I just gave in to his wish.
