BAP - little stories

Gun shot

MY POV

I plopped onto my queen sized floral bed with an open door to the balcony right up front, and I sobbed for a while.

*Knock knock*

"Dinner is getting cold Miss, do you want us to warm it up?" one of my helpers said.

"Just leave me alone for now, sorry." I replied.

"Yes Miss." With that, she bowed and left.

I need to have space. I think I was too foolish to get his attention, I was never like this, what happened to me?

I started sobbing onto my pillow again. Am I going back to who I am 8 months ago? No, that cant be, I dont want to!

●[FLASHBACK 8 months ago]●

I called out to my brother, I was lost in New York. "Oppa!!!!" I screamed out loud but now one answered.

I ran, confused, with tears running down my cheeks, not knowing where i'm heading to.

"Oppa!!!!!! Odiga(Where are you)?!?" I screamed and shouted my lungs out. No one was around , it was dark, I could feel fear lingering around me. I felt scared, and lonely, I just wanted to go home.

"Lein ah! Lien ah!" I heard someone called out. Its my brother coming my way!

"Oppa!" I shouted in relief and hugged him as tight as possible.

"Can you stay here please? Some of my friends ummm, just want me to go there for a while. I love you so much my little sister." He said in a serious tone and pointed at an area with a bunch of guys i've never seen before, who are they?. He said he loves me? He rarely says that, why now?

"Fine! Buy me an ice cream later! and a car, remember!" I said. I wiped my tears away and smiled. I'm defenitely going to get the car I want

I just stood there in a distance

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*BANG*

I gasped in shock, heard a gun shot, not far away from where I was standing

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and, saw my brother helplessly bleeding on the floor and the group of guys who shot him ran away.

"O-oppa, OPPA!" I ran faster when I realize what was going on, for a moment there, I didnt believe that it was happening, it a just happened too fast, I was really him that was shot! I knelt down beside him, still confused, why is this happening now?

"Oppa please dont die!! DONT DIE!! PLEASEEE DONT LEAVE ME!! Someone help!! PLEASE someone pleaseee!!!" I shouted and cried in despair, but no one was around, I havent gotten my New York number yet.

A pair of cold hands touched mine. I looked down at my brother who had little time left before he goes away

"L-Lien ah, oppa loves you, i'll buy you a new car soon, o-okay?" He managed a smile on his face as I held is hand tighter against my face.

"No no no no no, no! YOU CANT DIE!! YOU CANT!!" I shouted as tears came pouring down.

All of a sudden, his expression faded away and his hand fell onto the ground.

"NO!! THIS IS UNFAIR! I WAS BEING FOOLISH!! PLEASE COME BACK TO ME, PLEASE OPPA!" I shouted, I couldnt take it anymore. My whole body fell flat onto the ground, I cried and cried, looking at my brother.

My world fell apart just because of my foolishness, I lost my one and only brother just because I wanted to go to New York and buy a new car, just because I wasnt careful enough.

From the moment on, my whole personality changed, I switched school so I wouldnt have to face my friends, I started a new life and change my whole image. From a selfish and foolish girl to a totally different one, I promised myself to stay that way forever

That will make my brother proud of me.

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●[END OF FLASHBACK] ●

I cried more tears thinking about everything in the past 8 months ago before my brother passed away.

It was a nightmare for me. I didnt want to be foolish anymore and depend on money all the time. I loved my brother so much but I thought there was more time to appreciate what he has done for me, but I was wrong.

What I did just now for Youngjae was the girl I was before, forcing people to accept my gifts and not listening to what others say.

Did Youngjae affect me? He made me feel

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Like my old self again.