I have wrote many times before. Deleting words and feelings because people change with every passing second. I would write something that I felt was what my soul was screaming, so it must be correct. But I read it again and say to myself that is not what I am feeling and throw it away. I think that I should give these writings to my friends, because even though I talk about myself enough, I want them to know how I feel behind the closed doors when I feel the unexpected soul reigning sadness. In the moment emotions and thoughts. I..... I don't want to stress you guys out. I know you have your own problems, issues and scares. I just... Just to let you know if you ask me about this I will most likely not be able to remember much of how I felt, that's why I am writing it down. Because I cant remember anymore, I get reset all the time, I am more likely to tell you something, forget it and then tell the opposite the next day. Right and wrong out the window, sense of direction and gut feeling numbed. I want to remember, I want you to help me remember. Myself.
