Truth

Chapter 9

I take another deep breath, am I really going to tell THE Ethan Dolan about my stupid past.

"Come on Arianna, what did you do?" he asked.

"Well.... It all started when my parents died. I was on a shit wage because I was only on a apprenticeship. I was left with rent, bills to pay, I had to look after Katie, it was really hard. So I decided to get another job, one that had a good wage but it was only ment to be temporary." I pause a little.

"What job did you get?" Ethan asks while cleaning my face.

"Drugs" my voice was shallow and Ethans face pales, but he continues to clean my face.
"It was so easy, all I had to do was stash drugs in my house and the dealers would come and pick them up. The wage was good, I paid off all the bills and sorted my rent out. But I suppose you could say I got addicted and when I should of stopped I kept going"

"Did you take any drugs?" Ethan asked.

"No of course not. I never took any I just stashed them"

"What's the biggest amount you've stashed?"

"....... Twenty grand...... " I said and Ethan looked to the ground.

"Oh Arianna how can you be so stupid. Where does Cameron come into all this?" he asks and he puts the cloth on my bedside table.

"Well my boss, Sketch. Cameron was like his right hand man. If anyone steps out of line he makes sure that doesn't happen again, he did it to me one time"

"What do you mean" Ethans voice was shallow.

"I was robbed. Someone broke into my house and stole £9000 worth of Cocaine. Sketch was pissed and Cameron kicked the crap out of me. I said I would pay him back so he got me to do other jobs....."

"What jobs?"

"Dealing......he had me out at party's and on the streets selling the drugs. After a while I paid about half of it back but Sketch wasn't happy that it was taking so long so he came up with another job so I can give him the money faster.... " I start to cry. I can't believe I'm saying this out loud.

"Arianna your scarring me, what did this prick do to you!" he said a little loud.

"He wanted me to sell myself...... He wanted me to go into trafficking and.... I agreed" my voice was a whisper.

"What.... Oh no Arianna, you didn't. Wait you told me you were a virgin."

"Yeah I am. The day I was ment to have sex for the first time with some random guy.... Was the day I moved to New Jersey....... I ran away and they found me" I was sobbing my heart out and Ethan pulls me in and hugs me gently.

"I'm so glad you never" he whispers and pulls away.
"I'm so glad you never went through with it, I'm glad you moved here so I can meet you"

"Yeah well that's why Cameron was here Sketch wants his money"

"How much do you owe him?"

"About £4500"

"We will figure it out together"

"No Ethan, I don't want you to enter this world. I don't want you to get hurt" he puts his forehead on mine.
"Ethan you need to leave. You need to stay away from me or your going to get hurt" I whisper.

"Please.... Please don't push me away. I'm not ever going to leave you"

"Why? I don't want to hurt you"

"Your not Jessica, your so different. From her, from the other girls. Arianna I feel myself falling for you and I don't know how to stop"

"But why would you want to be with someone like me, who sells drugs"

"Who used to sell drugs. Your not that person anymore. Everyone makes mistakes"

"But why me Ethan?"

"....... Why not?.... "

My heart just skipped a beat. I can't believe he is not running for the hills. Ethan closes his eyes and leans in slowly but I pull away. I don't want to kiss him, not when I look like this.

"Why do you always blush?" Ethan asks me.

"Because I get embarrassed easily" I look down to the ground. Ethan tilts my head up so I'm looking at him.

"Your so beautiful" he whispers and leans in again. His hand is behind my neck so I can't pull away. I feel butterflies in my stomach.
"I like it when you blush" he murmurs against my lips.
Finally out lips connect and he was so gentle. He pulls away after a few seconds and smiles.

"Come on let's get you cleaned up" he said and he got off the bed and helped me up and we made our way to the bathroom.