Truth

Chapter 22

I wake up with my phone ringing. I pick it up and it was Ethan, I really don't want to talk to him. I decline the phone call and then I noticed he has phoned me 57 times and there were about 20 texts messages. I read through some of them.

Ethan 😍 :
Where are you Arianna, I'm worried! Xxx

Ethan 😍 :
Please don't ignore my phone calls xx

Ethan 😍 :
We will get Katie back. I promise you xxx

I read that message a thousand times, I really want Katie back. I stand up and get dressed into joggers and a black crop top, I then put a blue jumper over it. I also decide to wear a beanie hat to hide my crazy bed hair. I can't be bothered with it today.

I walk out my room and as soon as I do Debbie was just going back into the spare room. She gave me a small smile and I ignored her and went downstairs. She has no right to smile at me.
I go into the living and Aliayia is already dressed and she had her jacket on.

"Hey M'Darling, I'm going over to the boys house to see Gray are you going to be OK with bitch features upstairs?" she said looking to the ceiling.

"Yeah I will be fine. Go, go and have fun" I said she gives me a hug and then leaves.
I look at my piano, wondering whether I should play it. It usually clears my head, I take a seat and warm up with a few scales, I then start to play Lost Boy by Ruth B. I used to sing this song to Katie when she was little, I think it just made it worse.

There was a time, I was alone
Nowhere to go and no place to call home.
My only friend was the man in the moon and even sometimes he would go away to.
Then one night as I close my eyes, I saw a shadow flying high.
He came to me with the sweetest smile, told me he wanted to talk for a while.
He said Peter Pan that's what they call me. I promise that you'll never be lonely.
And ever since that day....

I am a lost boy from Neverland, usually hanging out with Peter Pan.
And when we're bored we play in the woods, always on the run from Captain Hook.
Run, run lost boy they say to me. Away from all of reality.

I stop playing because I feel someone behind me and I know it's Ethan. Probably Aliayia told him to come over, and I've just realised I'm crying.

"You play so beautifully. That song is amazing" he said in a soft tone.

"Yeah it's Katie's favourite song. I used to sing it to her when she was little to help her sleep." I said not making eye contact. I can feel him walk closer to me and he put his hand in my shoulder.

"We will get her back Arianna" he said and I let out a big sigh. I don't want his help, I stand up pushing his hand off my shoulder. I turn and face him but still not looking at him fully.
"What's wrong?" he asked and I looked him the eye, and of course I blush. It's the most colour I've had in my skin in days.

"WE are not going to anything. I'm going to get my sister back" I reply quite snappy.

"Arianna let me help" he said.

"No Ethan, I don't want your help. I'm in this mess because of your stupid ex. Well her and Debbie." I was nearly shouting.

"I know I'm sorry"

"Did you know that Katie is not my biological sister..... She's adopted"

"Your kidding!?"

"Yeah... So you tell me Ethan what the fuck do I do now. My mum and dad lied to me and Katie our whole lives, and I don't know what to do anymore"

"Well let me help you!"

"No! Like I said I wouldn't be in this mess if it wasn't for Jessica!" I shout.

"I don't control what Jessica does. You can't blame me Arianna!" Ethan shouts.

"I'm not blaming you Ethan! It's just..... " I trail off. I don't even know where I was going with that sentence. I just want someone to blame when really it's my fault.

"Arianna, I just wanted to help, but I'm not your punching bag. I'm your boyfriend and you take your anger out on me"

"Are you fucking kidding me, I'm only angry because I've lost my sister!"

"Arianna you need to sort your head out and I don't think I'm the right person to do it"
Wait what is he talking about?

"What's that supposed to mean?" I said and he gives me a hurt filled look.
"Are you breaking up with me?" my voice was really shallow.

"I think we should spend a little time apart just now. Just until your head is sorted"

"So your going to leave me in my time of need"

"I will never leave you, but I don't know what to do if your going to push me away all the time"

"Get out"

"Arianna please, listen it's not forever.... " I cut him off.

"GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE NOW ETHAN! I HATE YOU AND I DON'T EVER WANT TO SEE YOUR FUCKING ARAGANT FACE AGAIN. GET THE FUCK OUT!" I scream pushing him out the door. When he is finally out I slam it in his face.

I can't believe he just said that. I mean it was partly my fault but I can't help it. I always push people away. I even tried with Aliayia but she was having none of it. I love Ethan and now I have lost him. I sat on the stairs and cried my eyes out.
Please tell me this is all a dream and I will wake up in Ethan's arms and Katie is still sleeping in her bed. After a few minutes I walk upstairs and into Katie's room. It's still a mess from when she left it. I sat on her bed and continued to cry. I heard someone coming in the front door.

"Ari!" it was Aliayia. I didn't say anything I was too numb to speak. Seconds later Katie's bedroom door flew open and Aliayia didn't hesatite and she came and sat next to me and cuddled me while I cried.

The last time I felt this lost was when my mum and dad died. I really can't go through it again.