Anxious

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"You alright?" He asked me.

"Yes."
By this time it was early December. I wanted him to be with me for this because I really do trust him.

"You ready?"

"Not really."

"Come on. You can do this."

"What if it's positive? What am I gonna do?"

"It doesn't matter because you won't be alone. I'm here, Calvin's here, Kori's here, and most importantly. Dani's here."

I nodded and took a deep breath.
Oh god. What am I gonna tell Dani?

We haven't officially gotten back together yet but we've been sneaking around since she got back. Of course only Garrett knows.

I walked into the bathroom and got out the test.

Here goes nothing.

I washed my hands and waited for the results. 
Garrett held my hand from outside of the bathroom.

We waited for a little longer.
It's time. I looked at it and the result was....................................... 
Okay okay. This isn't American idol.

"What does it say?" He asked.
I put it in my pocket and walked out.
I put my hands on my stomach and he tried looking for my expression.
"Are you happy?"
Thinking about it. Yeah. I am happy.
I nodded my head.
"Then that's all that matters." He hugged me and kissed my head

"Victoria." I said and he nodded.
I walked to her room and and shifted around nervously.

"Hey girlie." She said and we hugged. I walked in and she closed the door.
"What's up?"

"Um." I started. "Well. I."

"You okay?" She asked me.

"It's hard to say. So. I'll just let this. Speak for itself." I took the test out of my pocket and held it out towards her.

She took it and looked at it.
"Oh. My. God.. When? Who? What?"

"The day everyone was leaving. I'm not saying who did this until I tell them. And. I'm two weeks pregnant.."

"Wow. You're so young." She said to me.

"We're the same age."

"But to be pregnant at 18.." She said to me.

"Not helping."

"Are you gonna keep it?"

"Yeah." I said. "Will you help me when I need you?"

"Of course." She said and hugged me. "When are you gonna tell the one who did this to you?"

"Soon.. Just. Keep your mouth shut about it alright? Only you and Garrett know."

"Why did he know before me?"

"He bought me the test. He knew before both of us." I said and she nodded closing her mouth.

"Alright." She said.

"So how're you doing?"

"Well. I'm back on semi good terms with Kori. And Dani doesn't hate me anymore. So. Yeah."
We sat on her bed.
"I'm glad we're sisters again."

"Me too." I held her hand.

"And I'm gonna be an auntie." She said with a smile.

"I have a class soon so. I'm gonna get going."

"Oh. Okay. I love you."

"I love you too Vick." I hugged her. She rubbed my stomach.

"Bye baby Allie." She said and I smiled. I left the room and went back to the room.

"ALLIE!" Kori yelled and hugged me.

"Hi." I said and she let me go.

"I just love life. I love everything and everybody." She spun around.
That girl is stoned.

"Good...you Kori." I said and changed clothes.

"Stripper Allie is back!"

"Shut up." I said to her with a smile. "you..Dani talk.. again?" I asked while changing.

"Yeah yeah. Watch this." She blew smoke rings out of her nose.

"Charming." I said and ruffled her hair before leaving.
I walked into class and Dani sat next to me.

"Hey you." She kissed my cheek.

"Hi." I whispered while she was still there.
"I need to talk to you after class."

"About what?"

"About. Us."

"Oh. Okay." She seemed a tiny bit happy.

After class I walked her to her room.

"So you wanted to talk about us?" She asked.

"Yes."

"Go on baby. Don't be shy." She said.

"I still love you. Do you still love me?"

"Yes."

"Do you see a future for us?"

"Like can I see us getting married? And having a family? And getting a house?"

"Yeah."

"I haven't really thought about it."
I looked down.
"But now that I do. Yeah. I can definitely see it."

Oh thank god.
"Really?" I asked with a small smile.

"Yeah. I can see us someplace nice. Far away from here. With. A kid or two. Probably a cat dogs are cool too. I'm not opposed to raising a baby tiger."

"What the fuck Dani?" I asked with a smile.

"Only kidding." She put her hands up. "Only about the tiger though."

"Well um. What would you say if some point in that future was in the present?"

"Oh shit. Am I supposed to be proposing?"

"No."

"Did I buy the place?"

"No."

"Did I buy a cat? Or dog?"

"Babe."

"Or did-"
I kissed her.
"Thank you for shutting me up because I would've just kept going."

"My pleasure."

"Well what part of it is in the present?"
I fiddled around with the rest nervously.
"What is that?"

I showed it to her.
"That's um. My pregnancy test.."
She just looked at it.
Oh god. Oh no.