Why me?! (Harry Styles Fanfic)

Chapter 16 Enough

•Alex

I feel like complete shit. It's been a few hours since Mac... passed. She saved my life. Literately took a bullet for me. If I could trade places, with her I would.

I just want my friend back. That's all I ask for. Now we're back at Harry's. He engulfs me and shushes me as I sit on the couch.

"Love, I know you're upset. I don't like it when you feel bad or when your sad. Take these" His words echo in my head and I grab the pain pills. And to my surprise, I they go down my throat.

"See, did you see the load fly off your back?! I did." I appreciate his enthusiasm.

"Hey, why did the gum cross the road?" His jokes are really bad but that's what makes them funny, most of the time. Anyways, he keeps telling me crappy jokes for probably 10 minutes.

I just remembered. I need to tell Zayn and the girls.

"Hey as much as I would love to hear your jokes, I need to make a few phone calls. I'll be out back." I sit on the hammock and call Jailene first. That convo last for probably 15 minutes. I teared up but didn't cry. The same with Sophia but her voice was cracking and her conversation lasted only ten minutes, but she most likely cried after we hung up. Now I only have to tell Zayn. This would be the hardest.

"Hello?" He sounds like he was asleep.

"Uh hey it's Alex. I wanted to talk about Mac."

"Oh yeah. I proposed to her the other night. I was going to tell you."

"Yeah I know. Um. Listen Zayn, I'm not even gonna try to lie, so here goes nothing." I explain everything about John. About the gun. I was leading up to the part where she... got shot.

"Wow. Are you ok? You could've called me."

"I'm ok...but Mac, she-" I couldn't find the words.

"Zayn... he shot her."

"Oh my god. Where is she? I need to go get her."

"No Zayn. It's- they couldn't... she died. At the hospital."
There was no sound coming from the other side. Then I heard a sniffle. Then he broke down. I felt so bad.

"Zayn I'm so sorry."

He said it wasn't my fault. But it really is. Harry comes out and lays next to me in the hammock. I hung up with Zayn and wiped my tears I didn't even realize were there. We laid there for a few minutes so I could calm down.

"I guess I should be going. I bet Gabe's looking for me."

"Ok. I'll drive you."

"Ok."

Once we get to the parking lot, we kiss and say our goodbyes.

I walk into my flat and the smell of cookies hits me. I'm not even hungry though.

"Alex? Is that you. Guys it's Alex!" It was my brother. Kenn was sitting in the living room in his wheelchair and Stephen came downstairs and gave me a giant hug along with Gabe.

"I'm over here!" Kenn said. We laughed and walked over to him and hugged him. When I sat down, they asked me where I was and I explained once again. They were all in shock. After that all we did was watch the tv without saying a word for hours. I'm not too sure they knew what to do.

"Hey I'm gonna go to bed. Night love you guys." They all responded and I went upstairs.

I started the water to the tub and stepped in. I scrubbed and scrubbed at my skin. I wanted to get everything that had happened within the last 24 hours off me. Maybe if I scrubbed hard enough, it'd all go away.

I put on whatever clothes were on my floor and crawled into bed and tried to sleep.

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It's been about a month since my best friend's passed away. My brother suggested it was time to go back to school. I caught a ride with Stephen since Kenn and Gabe already left.

I went to my locker and got my books for first and second period and was on my way.

My first period teacher really got onto me for not being there and have my make up work but after class said she was sorry for my loss. I guess one of my peers told her. Some people thought she was my sister. I understand why.

On my way to sixth period, I stopped by my locker again. I was about to walk off when Georgia bumped into me.

"Oh. Sorry. I didn't see you. I heard about Mac. I wouldn't be surprised if you did that to her honestly. Maybe you've finally lost it."

She starts to strut down the hallway. I can't take it anymore.

"Leave me the fuck alone! Why don't you just go spread your legs some more Georgia?" I can't stand her bullshit anymore.

"Woah Alex. Don't shoot me!" I'm done. All I could see was red.

Next thing I know, I pounced on her and we both fell on the ground. I was on top beating the living shit out of her until I felt someone pull me off.

"Let me go. She can always buy a new nose with her whore money!"

"Alex Stop." It was Harry. I love him but I wish he didn't stop me. Georgia was surrounded by her posse and they were all squealing at the blood. Then some of them walked with her off to the nurse while the other half gave me shocked looks. I turned to Harry whose eyes were big. He's never seen me that mad before.

"What did she do to make you break her nose?"

"She was saying how I shot Mac."

He stood there like a statue.

"Alright. I'll give you that one. Are you alright babe?" I just nodded.

Then, several people in the hallway started clapping. Didn't know this many people hated her. I ignored the recognition and Harry and I went on our way.

I was sitting in my sixth period math class when the intercom came on.

"I need Alex Russel to the principals office."

Lovely

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