Why me?! (Harry Styles Fanfic)

Chapter 22 Swings

•Alex

I understand what I did was wrong. I do, but I'm tired of trying to be perfect for everyone. Sometimes I need a break. So I took one and now my brother won't talk to me and my boyfriend thinks it's right to shout and cuss me out.

I don't even know where I am right now. Just on the streets behind some shops.

I shouldn't be out here. Probably should just go home, but my stubborn ass tells me to keep walking. I need to go see Harry and make things right. I need to call Gabe. He doesn't know where I am. Well really neither does Harry.

On my way back to Harry's, I stop by the park and sat on a swing. I just needed a break from walking. I can't even remember how long I've been out here.

Then memories were creeping into my mind. Like the time I... I mean we left my parents. Also many little things that happened while we were kids, but the one memory still haunts me.

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'Where are we going bubby?' I squeaked while jogging to catch up with him. My parents were fighting once again and me and my brother were supposedly on a walk like we always did. I looked up to see his emotionless face. Then I looked back to see my drunken and angry father shouting behind us. Right then and there I felt pure terror like never before. Gabe told me to run. Just keep running until we got to the train station.
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From the on we started our new life in London.

I shouldn't have been so aggressive towards Gabe the other night. I mean he's been through everything with me. From pets dying to my first period, he's been there through it all. I need to go back and apologize. I actually kinda miss being at home with him and the guys.

This weekend it'll just be a guys weekend which means just laying around, playing video games and watching horror movies. I'm not very fond of those, but whatever he wants.

When I get back to the flat, I try to come in quietly but it being so dark, I bump into the side table and fall on my face.

I really started to get scared when I saw a shadow in the living room. Then the light turned on and Gabe holding a bat caused me to scream. He swore he needed to keep it by his bed. Guess he was right. Then his face softened and he ran over to me and hugged me.

"I thought you just left us." What does that mean. Where would I possibly go right now?

"I'd never leave. You're my only family." I hugged back and he helped me back to my feet.

"No need to worry about Harry coming around anymore." I feel like now he's not mad at me I can tell him everything.

"What do you mean?"

We move to the couch and I tell him everything. He hugged me and kissed the top of my head. He's a major softie, but he will kill if needed.

I remember him on top of some kid with all of us other kids surrounding him. I tried to get him off but to no avail. And that's how Gabe went to the juvenile detention center... the first time.

"I'm really tired I think I'll go bathe first then hit the hay." I feel like shit, not only from fighting with Harry, but from running in the cold.

"Oh I got new movies and just stocked up with food. Maybe we can hang out tomorrow because I hardly see you anymore."

I throw my arms around his neck. "You're the best. I'm so sorry."

"I know." Cocky as always.

"Who needs relationships anyways." He has a point, but Harry was different. I don't even want to think about it.

"Yeah, you're right. I love you."

"Love you too." He's my real protector. Always has been an always will be.

"Now go bathe you smell."

After I shower and change I climb into bed. I put my phone on the charger and see that Gabe, Stephen and Kenn texted and called me like eleven times each earlier. Harry's also stalker texted and called me, but I ignore him.

As I place my phone on my night stand, I catch a glimpse of the picture in the frame. It's me and the guys at my first school dance. My horrid blue dress shimmered in the lights. They boys in their tuxedos. At least I know there are three guys that actually love me and will never leave.

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