Secret Lovers

Chapter 3 - Confusions and Confessions

-Abel's POV-

   I see the reaction in Jake's eyes. It looked like a mixture of relief and confusion, all in one.

   "Why me?" He asked quietly. Probably out of shock and to not wake up Alex.

   "I'm not sure." I replied honestly. "There is just something about you, maybe it's the fact that we've known each other for three of four years. You always know how to make me laugh and smile too." I blushed and looked away.

   "I thought you were straight?" Jake asks me slowly, while trying to comprehend what was happening.

   "I thought so, but now, I'm not quite sure. All I know is that I have some sort of feelings towards you. I don't know if it's just a one time thing or if it's actually something that I want." I said honestly. Which was true, I didn't know what was happening anymore then he was. I didn't know if this was just a fetish of some sort or if it was the real deal. I needed to know, and sitting here not talking or doing anything about it, wasn't helping me figure things out either.

   "I'm going to be honest with you, I've had something like you're having now too. I'm confused but slightly curious about it, about us, I guess I should say. I've never thought about it before but now, it won't stop going through my head." I heard him sigh and lean over to rest his hands on his knees.

   "We need answers you know. We need to know whether or not this is real." I said quietly.

   "I know. I'm just confused and scared as to what the guys will think about it." He said quietly as well.

   "We wouldn't have to tell them. If we try this out and it turns out to be nothing, no harm done right? We can keep it quite and not tell anyone if we wanted." I suggested.

   "I guess you're right." He shrugged his shoulders.

   I stood up and motioned for him to follow me. We went up stairs to my bedroom and I closed the door, to make sure no one would walk in. Just to be safe.

   I sat down on the bed and he did the same. I looked over at him and saw he was scared and hesitant to do anything.

   I'll change that.

   My cockiness is always in the way of trying to figure things out.

   I scooted closer to him, he didn't move away or cower. He actually leaned in a little bit, surprisingly.

   "Just one time. To see what's going on?" I asked.

   "Just one time." He repeated, while leaning in towards me.

   Maybe we can finally figure this out. We can get each other out of our systems and never talk or think about this again.

   Just one time Abel. What could be the harm in it, right?

   I leaned in to meet Jake and our lips crashed against each other, trying out our one time.