It's been over 6 months without you by my side. (Partly true, since we'd still have some feelings there until early April)
Luckily, I've been feeling far better than I could have imagined.
After finding out you had someone else on your life, with barely 2 and a half months passed, I lost weight as if it was done with every breath I took.
I had out baby, and went back to my normal weight, 103, but suddenly after getting the news I was down to 98. It surprised everyone, the teachers, my family, even that lady that makes herself be called your mother. My doctor, of course, felt really worried, not even 5 years ago did I weight under 100 punds. Suddenly after another checkup, I had gone 3 pounds lower; 95. It really started worrying my relatives.
My doctor had to send me to a counselor since she thought maybe I was going low on my diets and my life seemed worthless on my mind.
I had explained that you meant the world to me before, but I would never skip foods, not even if they'd tell me I was going to be the happiest girl in the world if I stopped eating, same case to my life. I have my baby with me, my family, my friends. Why would I feel my life is worthless when I have everything I need by my side?
That's what I told my counselor, they're just making sure I'm great. After an unfair breakup where I thought my life had been resolved since I'd found the love of my life and created a family with, and having that same once loyal boy turn his back to me should've sunk me deeper.
I hate so much the fact that I let myself go so low for you. How was I so blind, so stupid? You had left several times before without caring about how I was, and coming back knowing I'd receive you with opened arms.
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Letters To Him.
عاطفيةEven after we had a baby, and we broke up, I want to make these letters to this boy. I want to get rid of everything so I can learn to let go. This is to the boy I really fell in love with and had to go from my side. To the boy who totally converted...
