Letters To Him.

Unfairness

How is it that you think you get credit for "doing the right thing" for your baby when you barely even see him?
If I didn't have the self esteem I have, I would've been hurt by the way you and your girlfriend talked to me.
I can't wait either to get away from this place. It won't be because of you. It'll be to show you I don't need your citizenship to be successful.
You think you're so great just because you have money. I just wish you had the third of knowledge from that money.
Before I used to torment me with so many questions, like how couldn't I be happy with you.
The answer to it all is, we were never supposed to be together. We were not supposed to meet. I wasn't supposed to procreate with you. I wish I had known the monster you are when I met you.
All I crave for is for my family to always be together, to be able to confront what's in front of me, to compromise. And that's what you run away from. That's why we keep on fighting. That's why we couldn't end up together.
You're always trying to diminish my person, and I can't let you do that.
I am more than what you want to believe.
Once, I read people only understand from their level of perception, and I so wish you could widen a bit more your way of seeing things.
The way you claim to be doing the right thing, the hypocrite way you lie about being such a God worshiper.
Then it makes sense, that you want for people to think they're knowing everything about you, while you share lies, but "the emptier the road is, the louder it becomes" so that's what you do.
You want to brag about how happy your life is, you update your social life every second so people know what you're up to and always saying you're having fun times. Always wanting to believe you're the best dad.
You know?
Life is quite unfair.
You have a citizenship, you ought to be studying, working, and you decide to do none.
While I'm here suffering because I don't, because I graduated early but I couldn't afford to pay my classes since I can't work.
Then my parents are the ones taking care of my baby and I, and you still dare to say we owe you?
I just really hope that when we leave, you don't try to follow us. You've been clear enough as to how much you care about your baby, and you being away for good will only make things go well.