A Kiss Before The War

Chapter 12: Jailbreak

Lexa's perspective

As I sat on my throne I couldn't help but feel a sense of emptiness inside of me. It had been a period of weeks since I'd last seen Clarke and I couldn't take it anymore. After I had left the confines of the Ark, I had returned with my people to Ton DC to be present for the rebuilding of a place which had held significance for my people.

Truthfully though I wanted to be tearing down anything that stood between Clarke & me. I was duty bound however but I told myself repeatedly that I'd find a way to bring her to me. As much as I wanted to do that however, the situation was not that simple.

Clarke's people were being run by her mother who had a strong dislike for my presence anywhere near her daughter so getting into the camp was not going to be easy. I knew that I had the superior numbers and I could just take the place if I wanted to but bloodshed was not the answer.

Such a course of action would be something Clarke would not approve of and I wanted her to run into my arms not from them. Adding to that would be my people's unwillingness to risk their lives and the lives of their loved ones for just one girl, even if that girl meant almost everything to me.

So after many fruitless hours of thought I continued to remain stuck on the problem and as the seconds turned to minutes, the minutes into hours; the hours into days and eventually the days into weeks, my zest for life and the usual activities that were entailed in it were slowly leaching away.

One of my favourite past times, going out for a hunt with my comrades in arms was not as exciting as it once was. I once did love and appreciate the thrill of the chase whether it be on foot or horseback, as the adrenaline flowed through my veins as I competed to be the one to bring down the biggest animal.

I could only put it all down to her absence. I'd grown quite accustomed and fond of her presence and now that she was gone, there was a void inside of me that could not be filled.

"Commander! What say you on this matter?" Came the booming voice of Gustus. The raised tone of his voice clearly indicative of the fact that I'd stopped paying attention long ago.

I waved a hand lazily,

"Yes let it be done and be gone from my presence," I quipped as I'd rather be left to wallow in my own thoughts and self pity.

Gustus however wasn't just going to vanish from my sight without having his say it seemed however,

"It's because of that Sky girl is it not? She's the reason you're acting this way all weak and pathetic, correct?" He said to me, not bothering to disguise his disdain.

I rose from my chair at that moment, my inner grief forgotten as it was quickly replaced by anger,

"You watch your tongue Gustus or I shall cut it from your head so I won't have to hear you utter another word at me!" I threatened every syllabus utter carrying its respect weight behind my words.

"There's talk about certain tribes within our united whole who have begun to lose confidence in your leadership due to your dalliance with the girl and some of the choices you made and actions you've taken recently."

I knew that there was truth to his words about possible dissension, after all there was always going to be and always had been friction when I first set out to unite the tribes of this land.

From time to time, there was still never 100% agreement on any issue, with one tribe having something to gain at another's expense; so holding this alliance was always like walking on a knife's edge.