Just Let Me Go [A Nosh Fanfiction]

Chapter 2: Do I love you?

Finally a day to just relax. Sitting up in bed I look around the hotel room, feeling a bit dim due to my recent awakening. I rub my eyes hoping that I wake up completely. Lazily, I climb off the bed and head toward the living room. I turn on the tellie, falling back on the comfy couch. I left my eyes close for a few minutes, when I hear a knock at the door. I groan in annoyance and run my hands over my face. Half of me hoped that it was Niall, the other wanted to strangle who ever was behind the door. That half that longed for the Irish lad made a smile tug at my lips. I happily jumped of the couch in high hopes that it was him. I quickly swung the door open.

"Hey ma- Bec?" My smile rapidly vanished, replaced with confusion.

"Babe!" She lunges herself at me, wrapping her arms around my neck. I loosely wrap my own around her waist. "Surprise, love!" Yeah, surprise indeed. I lightly chuckle.

"Yeah, you surprised me. What are you doing here?" I tried to make this sound as casual as possible, because I am really confused as we're on the American tour. It's quite a long way for her to come.

" I thought I'd come to support you boys for the next show," she said smiling. She pulled back form the hug, still in my embrace she plants a kiss on my lips. Nothing. Nothing? I smile and let her go, picking up her duffelbag.

"Come in, sit. I'll be right back." Once she's inside I made my way into the bedroom. Guess you won't be spending time with your mate now, uh Josh? Spend the day with your girlfriend, who love you. I harshly throw her bag to the bed, irritated with my thoughts. Why does she have to come here? Most importantly, why don't I want her here? Maybe because you're in love with the blue-eyed lad? No, I'm not. I just care about him dearly, like a brother. Oh sure, because brothers have cravings to kiss their brothers. You don't have urges to kiss Ben, do you?  What in the hell?! Of course not! Why am I arguing with myself? Seriously, I might be going insane. Stop lying to yourself, mate.  I lean on the wall and slump to the floor. Why now, when everything was was going so well, have to be so confusing. Are you sure you're not the confused one here, Josh? I sigh and roll my eyes.

"Josh?" I hear her coming so I quickly get off the floor. "Josh? Oh, there you are. What's taking you so long?"

"I..I was using the toilet." She nods, then takes my hand, dragging me out of the room.

"Let's go out!" She says cheerfully. I furrow my eyebrows.

"But, love. I'm not dressed." She giggles at my lack of clothing, as I am in a white V-neck and some boxer briefs.

"Oh, right. Go get dressed, I'll wait for you." I return to the bedroom and lock the door. Go out? I just want to relax, but I can't say no to her, she came a long way. Whipped, mate? Am not!! Geez, I really need to stop talking to myself. I suppose it won't stop anytime soon though. I pace around the room. Am I? What am I saying. Of course I'm not, what am I saying? Why does she have to come? I mean, it further complicates my state. And she wants to go out? To do what? She didn't even ask if I wanted to...

"Babe, you done?" I sigh and head to my suitcase.

"Almost!" Yeah right, not even close. I pick out some blue fitted jeans and a Ramones tee. I rush to the mirror and style my hair accordingly. I'm surprised Bec hasn't mentioned my new hairstyle, as I've recently bleached it. I slip on my black Converse and head towards the living room.

"All done?" She says smiling. I smile back and nod. With that she takes my hand and pulls me toward the door.

"Wait, Bec. My things." I pull out of her grasp and  run into the room to grab my keys, mobile and wallet.. I heavily sigh and join her. We walk hand in hand toward the lifts. While we wait for them to arrive, I send a quick text to the boys, in case they go looking for me.

I take a quick glance at Bec, seeing her with a grin on her face, I then look back at the doors, anxiously pushing the button... Not that it's going to make the lift come up faster. Once they finally open we both step inside. Whilst we go down, I can't help but think:  What has happened to that feeling I used to get when I would see her? I don't feel that anymore, at least not now, not today. Now in the lobby, she drags me out  and heads to the  doors. Outside, we are met by a lovely clear and bright sky. I was taking out my keys before Bec pointed to a car which i assume is, her, rental. 

"I rented a car!" She exclaims. Thankfully there weren't many people around. I may not be a singer in One Direction, but I am well known. Finally we arrive at the car. "Babe, here." She flings the keys at me. I manage to catch them. I guess I'm driving. I unlock the doors and climb inside, gallantry slipping my mind. Eventually, she climbs inside.

"Where to, love?" She bites her lips, thinking I suppose.

"How about a nice diner, yeh?" I nod and start the car. I put in the nearest diner in the GPS and start driving. Finally at the diner, we wait a while and until we're appointed to a table. After we order, Bec takes my hand. She stares at me lovingly. I try to return it, but I can't find the ability to do so. Instead I settle for a slight smile. "I've missed you so much, Josh." She then runs her thumb over my knuckles. 

"Me too, Becca." That's really low of you, Josh. Can you be anymore of a dickhead. You know very well that it's not true. Gosh, I know, and my heart aches at the thought of it. As we wait for out breakfast, she tells me so many sweet things, that I can't bring myself to return as I'd be lying. While she continues my mind is stuck on one query.

Do I love you?

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A/N: Update!!!! It's shorter than I wanted it to be but, eh. I hope you enjoy it! Please VOTE and COMMENT!!! Bye for now, lovelies - Jenn