The Secret They Kept

17.

I didn't know what to say, I didn't know how to explain anything. I couldn't move, I couldn't do anything. I didn't want to think about it again. I didn't want to think about what he was doing and what he was saying. I didn't want to think about the noise, that goddamned horrible noise. I felt like my ears were bleeding. I felt like they would fall off. I looked over at Derek, he had pulled off onto a side road. So I told him; about everything; I told him about the words, about how close Caleb had gotten, and how I couldn't get away from him. When I got to the noise it was like I couldn't describe it. I tried to but no words could describe how much that sound hurt. How I was certain my ears would fall off and my ear drum would brake just so the noise would go away.

I studied his face and as I watched his mouth say 5 words, only 5 before he got back on the road and drove back to the pack house.

"I'm going to kill him."

He doesn't deserve death, nobody does.

~

We were at Derek's house and we were arguing about how Caleb shouldn't be killed or in Derek's case how he should be. From how it was going I was winning. His beta was very uncomfortable because Derek wouldn't let him leave and because he was barking orders at him and I was telling him not to follow Derek's orders. As much as the beta would have loved to obey the orders, he couldn't because Derek had accepted me as the Luna, so my will was just a little bit stronger than his.

"Derek you are not killing him!"

"Yes I am! He hurt you!"

"That still doesn't mean that you can kill him!"

"Yes it does! That's exactly what that means!"

The beta peeped up "This seems more of a conversation between both of you. So I'll just leave."

"No!" Was Derek's response.

"Let him leave Derek! He's clearly uncomfortable!"

"I don't care, he's not leaving."

I turn to the beta and spoke normally, softly even. "You can go Patrick, by order of me."

"Thank you Luna." Was all he said before he left.

Derek went ballistic because Patrick had obeyed me instead of him. I looked at him and with a face full of anger and yelled, "Derek I swear if you don't sit the fuck down right now I'm going to rip off your head and feed it to your pack!"

His face showed that he was terrified and he sat down. "Thank you." I said a bit more calmly. "Now you're not killing him. Well you're not killing him with out giving him a hearing first. We will both be the judge of if he dies or if he lives. End of discussion I'm not talking about it anymore."

He got quiet and I left without another word. When I stepped out of his house many of the pack members were gathered around including Ty and Jackie all their mouths wide open.

"Ty, Jackie, come with me everyone else back to your own lives." I mentioned in the sweet Luna tone.

Ty was the first to speak,"I agree with Derek he deserves to die."

"Ty, he's your friend."

"Was, past tense."

"What?"

"He isn't a part of my life anymore he's a horrible thing."

"He's still a human being, well partly."

Jackie spoke up next, "I agree with you he deserves to feel like he's being given a fair chance with a trial, then he's dead."

"If proven guilty that is." I added on. "I'm going running, I have to much pent up anger."

They moved their heads okay, "Hey Ty?"

"Yea?"

"Tell Derek for me please, I'm too mad right now."

"Okay but if he kills me, you're to blame."

"Deal." Then we shook on it.

~

I was tired and it was around midnight when I got back to Derek's house. He would be beyond livid with me but I didn't care right now. All I cared about was showering and curling up to Derek and sleeping. The middle part probably wasn't going to happen. I snuck in very quietly and took a shower, I put on a pair of shorts and one of Derek's T-shirts and went to his bedroom. The light was on, his hair was a mess probably from running his hand through it so many times, and he was still fully clothed. I had to wake him up and make him change. I shook him slightly and whispered his name, I did this a few times before I decided that it wasn't going to work. So I got on top of him and straddled his waist and shook his head back and forth, he sleeps like a rock. So running out of ideas I slapped his cheek. He woke up to that but not very nicely. He had me up against the wall, hand around my throat, crushing my windpipe. When he realized it was me he dropped me and picked me up and hugged me and kept repeating that he was sorry, and I kept repeating that it was okay.

"You need to put on pjs."

"Why?"

"Because I'm tired and I want to sleep."

"So then go to sleep."

"But I don't like lying in bed by myself."

"I'll be there shortly, I promise, just lay down and get comfortable."

"Okay." So I did, he turned off the light for me. Just as I was falling in to a deep sleep I could feel Derek get into the bed and put his arm around me. I decided I would go see my mom tomorrow morning and be back before the trial. I fell right to sleep.

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