Accidental Love

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       Chapter 6)

               Song. for this chapter: Hawthorne Heights- Breathing In Sequence

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Harmony's POV)

My eyes opened to the sound of my alarm clock.  I reached over hit the snooze button.  I layed back flat on my bed, thinking about yesterday's events. Why the hell did I tell him all of that. I wasn't lying when I said I didn't know why I told him. I just lost control. I never spilled my guts like that to anyone. Not even my father. I know my mother would be extremely disappointed right now. She used to always think crying was ridiculous.

          I sighed and dragged myself out of bed. The only way to forget what happened yesterday is to not dwell on it.

        I decided I could go for a shower. I walked to the bathroom and started the water setting it to its perfect temperature.  I pulled my clothes off and stared at myself in the mirror. My body was almost to thin for comfort, but it was thin nevertheless.

        I shook my head and got in the shower. I sighed in contentment as the water dripped down my back. I was tense. I could go for a massage after school today. It sure hell is much needed.

     After ten minutes, I got out and dried off before wrapping my towel around me. I proceeded to my closet to find an outfit when my phone buzzed. It was from Heather.

           -Catching a ride with Chelsea today. No worries about picking me up."

        I sighed kind of happy. It seemed like Heather was becoming more and more annoying lately. Or maybe it was just me. That's a possibility.

         I shrugged, not bothering to reply and headed back to my closet. After fifteen minutes, I finally pulled on my red and black trinity start tank top, my red skinny jeans with a black studded belt, and my red and black Jordan High tops. I decided to throw on my necklace shaped as vampire fangs. I applied red lipstick. I pulled my hair up in a ponytail, grabbed my stuff and headed down stairs.

          Damen was already gone so I wasn't worried about him needing a ride. I grabbed a water out of the fridge and headed to my car.

           I got in and peeled down the road.  Situations by Escape The Fate came on and I blasted the volume. I couldn't listen to music like this around Heather. Sad, that she's my best friend, but she can be just as judgemental as everyone else. I ignored my thoughts and sang along.

     "WELL, I TOUCHED HER OOOH! SHE TOUCHED MY AAHH! IT WAS THE CRAZIEST THING! I LOVE THE GIRLS WHO AIN'T TO LUCKY CUZ THEY'RE JUST LIKE ME! A CERTAIN GIRL, SHE TOOK MY HAND AND RAN IT UP HER THIGH! SHE LICKED HER LIPS AND PULLED MY HAIR, I FALL IN LOVE FOR A NIGHT! "

         I laughed at myself and turned the radio down as I pulled into the school parking lot. I parked in my usual spot near the front entrance of the school. I was a little shocked to find that Jasper parked in the same spot too. He said something to his friend who glanced at me, back at him, nodded, then walked into the school. But, I was even more shocked when he got out and starting walking over to my car. Was he waiting on me? After last night, I thought he would be avoiding me like the plague.

        I turned my car off and got out as he stopped right in front of me. To say we got a few interested glances would be an understatement. I'm sure everyone was wondering why a pop was talking to a freak. Jasper noticed it too and ran a hand, nervously, through his hair.

       "Um, do you mind if we sit in your car," he asked. "I really don't want an auidiance for this."

     I nodded. "No, I don't mind, but if you don't want an audience, you might wanna use your car considering you have the ultra tented windows."

       He seemed to think about it for a minute before glancing around at the still wondering eyes.

         He nodded. "Yeah, I think you're right. "

         We got in and sat in an awkward silence for a few minutes.

     We turned to speak to each other at the same time, then laughed at ourselves.

        "Ladies first," he said looking me in the eyes.

        I took in a breath and released it before speaking. "I was just gonna say that you really don't have to be doing this. I'm sorry for freaking out that las night- "

       He opened his mouth to speak l, but I waved him off and continued.

        "Look, we can just get this project over with and be done with each other. I-"

      "You wanna be done with each other?"

         He honestly sounded hurt.

     I swallowed before speaking."I just think it would be best if we went back to the way things were."

      He scoffed. "The way things were? You mean keeping up a painted on smile and following Heather around like a lost puppy?"

      My mouth fell open. That made me angry. Not angry at him, but angry that he hit that right on the target. But what made me even more mad that he was right. I follow Heather around like a scared little girl. But that's because I was. I didn't become popular until I met Heather. I wasn't perfect before that. No one loved me. But people love me now, and that's what matters.

        I met his gaze, hard. "So what if I have to play puppy dog to Heather. People love me when I'm with her. You have no fucking idea what it feels like to desperately seek love only to be denied of it every time you find it. And You know what Jasper, I can't wait for this to be over so that I never have to talk to you or another freak like you again. Go to hell. And maybe if I starve myself to death, I'll see you there."

          I reached for the handle, but before I could even open the door, I felt him place his hand on my shoulder and turn me around. He wiped my eyes with his thumb. I didn't even know I was crying. When the he'll did tears start to fall. I tried to pull away, but he held on to me tighter. He held my gaze, his eyebrows furrowed as if he was debating something. Then before I knew it or before I had time to stop it, his lips were on mine. I was shocked at first, but then I felt myself relax and start kissing him back. I reached my hands in his hair and knotted my fingers through it, pulling it slightly. He moaned a little and traced his tongue along my bottom lip. I granted him access without even thinking about it. The kiss deepened and his hands trailed up my waists. That snapped me back to reality. I pushed him back, to his surprise. I could feel fresh tears start in my eyes. Before he had time to stop me again, I opened the door and ran out of the car, forgetting all about my school bag, and didn't stop running until I reached the bathroom. What the hell just happened and why the hell did I like it so much?

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