Do We Want This? // Camila Cabello x Shawn Mendes

Chapter #12

Shawn's POV

She was everything I hoped for in a girlfriend. I can't believe I never had the guts to talk to her until about a month ago. We knew each other since grade school and she was the most gorgeous human being on the planet. Her name was simply, Charlie. I think it is a perfect name for a girl. She has this beautiful sand colored hair and sea foam green eyes that you can never take your eyes off of. Charlie knew I wanted to work overtime so I can provide for her. I wanted her to know that she was the very first love of my life. I'm pretty sure Camila is way over me by now; considering that she's dating a movie star. Isn't his name Jack or something?

"You are an amazing boyfriend, Shawn." Charlie says as she cuddles closer to me

"And you are an amazing girlfriend, Charlie." I say kissing her forehead

"Charlie?"

"Yes, babe?"

"Did you ever notice me in grade school or even high school?" I ask her with concern

"To be honest, I had a huge crush on you. Even though it never seemed like it because I was the popular girl who hung out with the football players and the quarterback took me to prom. I actually was into you somehow."

"Why did you never approach me?"

"I don't know. I guess I was afraid what my friends would say. I know it sounds ridiculous and I shouldn't care what other people think. I was just scared you wouldn't be interested in a basic white girl." She laughs

"You never know what could happen." I smile at her.

"I'm glad we're together now. How do you feel?" She asks

"I feel pretty accomplished that I get to be with my long term crush."

"Aww that's the sweetest thing ever. I love you, Shawnie."

"I love you, too."

You know, there was something odd about me saying 'I love you' to her. I didn't feel any sort of emotion whatsoever. What's wrong with me? Do I not like her anymore? I expected tingles to travel along my body. I was hoping my heart will flutter and my imagination running wild. I would want the urge to do more with her automatically, but it just wasn't there. I'm clueless at the moment or maybe I'm just tired.

Camila's POV

I've been hanging out with Jack so much, I would consider him my best friend. He's so sweet and funny and he even gave me a few acting lessons. He took me onset of his new feature film and I would say that it's the most fascinating thing ever. You actually get to be in the presence of film cameras and movie sets and other famous actors. It was surreal. His director told me to swing by sometime to audition for him. That's an opportunity anyone rarely gets. I'm basically kinda famous just from hanging out with this guy, and I'm not even a part of the film industry. Well, 9,000 Instagram and twitter followers is alright to me. One time I introduced him to my family and they all got along extremely well. We've been doing many things together and let me tell you, my life has been restored. I feel loved and I haven't had this much fun in years. I wouldn't trade this for the world. It's been a month by now and Jack knows everything about me. He's very respectful and a great listener. He also told me about his struggles that he faces.

"I'm so glad I met you, Jack. If I hadn't I would be a depressed wreck."

"All it takes is one person to change the life of another. I'm glad I was there to help."

"I'm having so much fun with you, I wouldn't replace you for the world."

"I'm so happy you feel that way. It makes me feel so accomplished to change your life like that. It's like I was meant to be your best friend."

"And to make it official, I bought you a friendship ring."

"Really?? Wow! I've always wanted one of these and everyone just teased me about how girly it was."

"It's not girly at all. Trust me, I hate girly things, but this I can do."

"Put it on me and I'll put yours on. It'll be like a friendship marriage!"

"Okay!'

No matter how people or the media view our friendship, he knows me and I know him. I'm so grateful and I shouldn't have been feeling depressed when I never needed to be. I never needed to cut either. It just makes your life seem like an endless cycle. All you gotta do is wait, and good things will come. Life never promised no storms to come. Just know that it all comes to past. There's no need to make your storms worse than they already are.

A/N: Sorry for it being so short. I literally had NO ideas these past few days. Thanks for almost 200 reads my friends!