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Chapter 5

Sienna's POV
It's been two weeks without Josephine, two weeks with just me and my father, two weeks at this school, and two weeks of sadness and anger inside of me. I know it's not like I'll never see Josephine, I'm able to contact her whenever I want but I guess I'm too hurt to call her. It's still hard adjusting to this new school. Everyday I hear people talking behind my back. I have speech problems, I'm a snob, a bitch. Just because I haven't said one word to any of the students. They got it all wrong I can't help that I'm so shy, I'd like them to go through what I am and see how it feels. This is literally my first time being around people my age. I had no friends to celebrate birthdays with me. Not when I entered double digits, not in my first year being a teen, no Sweet Sixteen party. Nor have I ever been to one and I'm already 17. It really sucks and they don't understand that.

Classes for me have been fine, I've already learned this so its easy so I just get my homework done in class so I won't have to worry about it later. When I finish my homework I reach in my backpack to get my sketchbook but I can't feel it. Where is it? Did I not put it in here? I shuffle through my backpack making sure I'm not overlooking it but it's still not there. I sigh as the bell rings and just go to the cafeteria for lunch. I'm sitting alone picking at my food like a science experiment when suddenly a group of girls sit by me. I get they want to make conversation with the fairly new girl which is great but it's so overwhelming. My fingers nervously grip on to the lunch tray and I leave tossing out my food.

I wander around the school in search to find another place to be alone. My head peaks into the dimly lit auditorium and no one is inside. I walk around getting a feel of the place and notice a piano sitting all alone in a corner. I sit on the small stool and sigh. So many thoughts are going through my head right now, leaving the lunch table like that probably made it seem like I was uninterested. I swear I'm not. I really want to be apart of a conversation and have friends but it's too hard. It's too scary. A small tear rolls down my cheek. I blink to clear my vision and play with a few keys before I rest all my fingers on them. My fingers begin to play as I softly sing with them. Since I'm so upset I thought it would make sense to sing what I feel and what other song is better than Who You Are by Jessie J? I instantly feel like I'm back in my room with Josephine as happy as I can be. When I finish the song I'm interrupted by the loudest clapping sounds I have ever heard. There's so many people in here looking, no clapping for me. A pretty girl pushes through the crowd and walks up to me smiling.

"That was amazing you're so talented. I'm Alexia."

"Sienna.." I clear my throat nervously.

"I'm so glad I found you it's like you answered my prayers, I've been looking for someone to sing at my parents anniversary party and you're fit for the job!"

"Oh no I don't really- I mean I w-was just messing around.." My voice is shaky. "Besides I-I don't really don't play much." She holds me by the shoulders and I flinch.

"Oh c'mon Sienna, please? I'm sure we could find someone to help you out!" She smiles.

"Actually I can. " we both turn our heads. My mouth drops when I realize it's Jonah.

"You.." Is all I can say.

"Yes him! Thanks to him I found you! Jonah sent a text to the whole school to come check you out. Anyways back to my request, please say you'll do it Jonah is even willing to help you out. Please Sienna this means the world to me." She begs, I look to Jonah as he's smiling and I sigh.

"Uh sure." And she squeals hugging me tightly.

"Thank you so much! It's in two weeks I just sent Jonah the information he can just forward it to you, thanks again!" She says and quickly exits the auditorium. What did I just get myself into. I've never performed infront of anyone, how am I gonna tell my father? He won't be thrilled about this, he won't think that I can benefit from this. Ah this is so frustrating I shouldn't have told her yes. I sigh rubbing my temples.

"Wow I finally got to hear your voice. What a historic event." Jonah jokes, "Now that I know that words can come out of your mouth will you tell me about yourself."

"There's not much to know." I shrug, "I'm just a normal seventeen year old girl."

"Oh come on I'm sure there more to you. What do you like to do? Any favorite movies? Stuff like that."

"I don't have time to watch movies I can't remember that last time I even watched one, I haven't really experienced much. I've was homeschooled before I came here. All my life. It actually sucks, living in such a huge house and have people drive you around." I sit back on the small stool.

"Are you kidding when I saw you get picked up the other day I was so jealous. Man I wish I was living life like that." He laughs

"Nah. Trust me you don't. It may seem fun but it's not. It's literally just me all alone now my dad recently let our staff go, and he's always busy so he's not around much. And my mother died when I was a baby. That kind of life isn't fun. But it is what it is, it's making me become more independent and I'm glad that I'm here because I'm slowly breaking out of my shell and getting what I've wanted. A friend." I smile to myself

"Hm interesting. And what do you like to do?"

"I love to draw and of course, sing." My smile quickly fades.

"Your face says otherwise." Jonah says leaning against the piano.

"Oh no I really do its just that I lost my sketchbook but I wasn't able to find it and someone special gave it to me. " Jonah puts his backpack on the piano and unzips it pulling out a purple notebook.

"You mean this one?" A smile sweeps across my face in excitement. I can't believe it I thought I would never see it again!

"Yes! Thank you so much, where did you find it? I open the book and flip through my pages.

"Well when I bumped into you on your first day you dropped it but you ran off before I was able to give it to you." He explains. Oh. "Yeah I even tried calling after you but you didn't stop and you didn't exactly want to talk to me since." His brown eyes meet with mine and I tuck my hair behind my ears.

"I'm so sorry about that, but thank you so so much you have no idea how important this is." He nods his head and we both stay quiet for a quick minute. "So um for this anniversary party we could maybe you know I'm practice during lunch or after school.."

"Yeah that's cool." He hands me his phone meaning he wants my number and I add it into his contacts, "I'll be looking forward to it." He winks grabbing his stuff and walks out of the auditorium.