I Think I Fell Inlove With A Fuckboy

12.Locked up

1. Sorry for the late update... I was just going through something personal... Oh who am I kidding
I just had nothing to write

But I'm soo bored right now so I guess a chapter's coming up.

2. Don't forget my book too soon though Lol
A better book is coming up... Based on my life story
I promise it's interesting... I just need a plot and a cover photo then I'll get started...

Anyways... Enjoy

I paced back and forth on my balcony, thinking of ways I could get past Nick and never have to see him again
Things just got more awkward everyday and I don't think I can hold it any longer

I could leave this town. I don't have friends anyway
Ouch...
Jenna...

I pushed thoughts of her away as I walked back in, realising how cold outside was. I walked down the long staircase and straight to the kitchen for some hot cocoa.... I didn't want stress mom out by catching a cold

Once I got there I was shocked to see Nick sitting right there, talking to my mom
Weird

They looked up once they heard me walk in and I stared back, wondering what Nick was doing at my house...
"May... Come, come have a seat. Nick and I were just talking about you"Mom broke the silence
" W-what about me?" I stammered. Really May, that all you got?? I gave myself a mental facepalm as I slid into the seat beside Nick since that was the only chair close to me at the moment
I felt his eyes on me and when I briefly looked at him... I realised I wasn't wrong
"Nick said you haven't been studying as hard as you used to. You are becoming... Distant" Mom continued
Wait... What???
I stared wide eyed at him...
"Mom.. I-I" I didn't know what to say
"Look May. I don't care about the problems you have with Nick... You need to step up. You are getting bad academically and you know it"
"But Mom" I whined
"Don't do that May. I give you an inch and you take nine... Now you're gonna go up to your room and you are gonna study with Nick-"
"I won't" I had never, **ever** cut my mom off when she spoke and I could see she noticed my change in attitude
Geez, what has Nick done to me???
"Repeat that"she said calmly...
Oh no... Speaking calmly is something mom does when she's getting mad
" Mom please" I pleaded
She stood up
"You either study with Nick or you get grounded. That's final" She walked away, leaving me with... Nick
I rolled my eyes at him and he just smirked
Why does he even want to be with me? He could have Mona or probably any other girl... Why me??? Ugh
I walked away, feeling his presence behind me. I paused
"Leave me alone Nicholas" I continued to my room, with him still behind me
When we neared my room he literally pushed me in and locked the door
I fell to the ground quite roughly
Ugh! I bet I have bruises on my elbows
He's got quite some nerve huh

I got up almost quickly
"What the f*ck was that?!?!" I fumed
He shoved the key into his pocket
I stomped towards him
"Give that back!"
He looked at me, his eyes turning black

Now, from all those erotic books I've read, guys' eyes turn black with lust
Lmao.
I bet that ain't the case right now

He moved close to me, and I realised i was holding my breath
He looked at me a moment longer and before my mind processed what was happening, Nick crushed his lips into mine and I just stood there, fazed
He held my backside, pulling me closer to him till I felt the bulge in his pants. He was hard... For me ?

Am I the only one getting hot in here?? *Fanning myself*

I laid my hand on his chest and pushed myself away. "W-what was that for?" I asked, feeling all tensed up
He moved closer, almost whispering he said,
"You want this as bad as I do" He pecked my chin and slowly made his way to my lips and bit on my lower lip, trying to get me to give him entrance...
It took me a second to realise I wanted this just as much so I parted my lips and tugged at his already messy hair.
He kissed me hungrily, sliding his tongue in and holding me so tight I promise I couldn't breathe
He grabbed my thighs in a way so he could easily carry me and took us over to my beanbag, dropping himself on it
The whole time our lips stayed glued together
Gosh this feels soo good

Our lips fought for dominance and of course he won
I wrapped my arms around his neck just as his arms left my waist.
I wondered what he was going to do next.

He slid his hand right under my crop top and I began feeling uncomfortable
I only wanted a kiss. I wasn't ready for this

I sprang up immediately and he pouted
"N-nick. I don't know what just happened right now but... It was a mistake. I-it shouldn't have happened... " I looked down, "Please leave"
He got up and walked to me, "I don't to"
"And I don't care" I looked up at him

"Help me understand May... Didn't you like what just happened now?" I blushed and he took that for a yes, I presume "Mhm. So then why did you stop?" He sounded soo vulnerable. I was shocked
I figured maybe this was all a trick or he was fooling around so I kept my mouth shut. Then there was silence

I hesitated a little after that moment of awkward silence
"Just leave. I'll see you tomorrow I guess"

He looked at me one last time and dug his palm into his pocket, bringing out my key and threw it at my face and passed the window.
I sighed

I can't do this... I just can't

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I skipped dinner and cried myself to sleep. I felt stupid
I could have stopped him when he started but I didn't and I just couldn't figure out why

I don't like him. I hate him
I hate him
I have to get the hell away from him... From this mess that would only get worse everytime we are so close to each other
I was actually thinking about Boarding school
It wouldn't be that bad... Would it?