Torn

Chapter Fourteen

I fluttered my eyelids open and sat up in my bed. It was about twelve o'clock I guessed. After Louis kissed me last night, I couldn't get any sleep, so I just decided to get up.

I kicked my feet to one side of the bed and stood up. I was still wearing my Tomlinson sweatshirt, which made me smile as I tiptoed down the stairs. All night I was thinking about him. It felt good for him to kiss me. But I don't know if I like him like that. Louis's sweet and adorable and always looking out for me. He makes me feel warm and safe when I'm around him. And his jokes... His stupid jokes make me smile and laugh uncontrollably. I don't even know why. His voice is amazing. Especially his morning voice. I missed when he used to wear his red pants and suspenders. And his laugh when I tickle his stomach. I love Louis... Holy crap... I just said that I loved Louis...

I threw myself onto the couch and pulled out my phone from my pocket. This is the perfect time to talk to Sabrina... She can help me.

••Me: I love Louis. ••

I sat up and ran my hands through my hair a few times. Liam would hate this. Zayn would hate this. Niall would hate this. And Harry... Oh God, Harry.. Harry would definitely hate this...

My phone quietly beeped as random thoughts flew through my head.

••BeanieBoo: ya.. he's pretty cool. I love him too.••

I chuckled quietly after reading her text. Obviously, she didn't understand what I meant, so I decided to call her.

"Yo my sexy woman," Sabrina's tired voice said.

"Hey, I love Louis... Like, love, love," I whispered into the phone. It was silent for a second, then a bunch of muffled sounds.

"What's going on?" I asked, unsure if anyone would answer.

"Nothing, I just ran outside of the room where I'm alone in the hallway. Are you serious?" She asked. I sighed and told her everything that happened and what I felt about it all.

"Don't tell anyone.. Seriously," I said quietly.

"Mmkay," Sabrina agreed quietly, "I have to go. Bye."

"Bye," I said right before she hung up. I don't even know if she heard me say bye. She seemed pretty flat about the whole conversation.