Dont Leave Me

Five

The next day JC and I skipped school because of all the drama and how late we stayed up last night.
That was completely fine with me because I'd much rather be here with people who accept me, than at school with people who'd rather encourage me to kill myself.
Sometimes I didn't need their encouragement to think that way, sometimes me, the prisoner of my thoughts was all I needed.

Today I felt happy for once. I felt free and able to do the things I wanted without getting beaten by belts or fed hot sauce from a spoon.
I walk downstairs and Taylers eating a chocolate bar. She was sharing it with Kian.

She giggles when he takes a bite, im glad they're okay again but I didn't show it.
"Barf much?" I say walking past him to JC. For some weird reason I really wanted to give his figure a hug, maybe for myself but I didn't. I'm sure he didn't want my scraped up arms around him.

"Hey cutie." He says causally as if he didn't just compliment me.

"Hi, JC." I smile and grab some food from the fridge since Tayler was to busy sharing candy with Kian to make me breakfast this morning.

"ROSIE!" he yells happily.

"What?" I laugh.

"COME TO THE BEACH WITH ME TODAY, PLEASE?"

"Er, what if someone from school see's us?" I say nervously, I wasn't a goody goody what so ever but I was scared of the people who go to school with me.

"Who cares, they're trash just like how they treat you." He puts his finger under my chin lifting my head up. It was cute but not needed, epically because I found it attractive.

I wanted to run away from him and my emotions but I felt it'd be too dramatic and he'd find me weirder than he probably already does.
Instead I smile lightly and turn around.

"I guess." I say sweetly.

"YES!" he congratulates like he won the lottery.

He runs upstairs to go put his swim trunks on and I did the same. I put my normal bottom on and a long sleeve crop top.

"Why the Kong sle-" Jc cuts himself off after asking. He shakes his head making me feel bad.
"Please don't ever ever ever do that again." I don't answer, I couldn't promise anything. Cutting was basically an addition or a bad habit because once you start you feel your not good enough to get better, like you deserve what your doing to yourself.
I shrug, maybe he thinks that's a good answer and we leave.

He reaches for my hand but I pretend not to see and grab something from my bad, sun glasses would make it seem realistic. I put the sunglasses on and continue to walk until he does it again.

"Uh, there's rocks in my shoe." I shake my flipflop and play it cool. I didn't want to reject him because honestly I knew I had a thing for him but I'd never show it.

He quits trying the next time because we are at the beach. I lay down on my beach towel trying to get a tan.
"Rosie, I didn't take you here so you could lay on the ground!" He says nicely and in a begging way.

"I want to be ta-" he cuts me off by picking me up. I dig my fingernails into his shoulder struggling to hold on so he couldn't throw me but he was strong.

He through me into the water and I splash him once I get out.
"Get on my shoulders." He commands.

"You'll drop me. I'm too big."

"Get on my shoulders." He says in his regular tone, again.

"JC." I walk away slowly since I was in the water.

He go's under me and makes me sit on his shoulders. He runs into the deep water which scares me and I hold on to his head tighter.

"OW!" he yells scaring me, there was nothing around us that I could see except for blood surrounding some of my legs and his chin.

While I was busy looking I felt a big knock of a wave push me off him.

I wake up not even remembering falling asleep or where I was.
I see a bunch of doctors surrounding my bed and I instantly know what happened. I plop up quickly. "Where's JC?" I freak, scared of what really did happen to him out there.

"Your friend is in the bed next to you, he's going to be fine." They explain and I nod. They're explanation didn't really calm me what so ever. It made me scared that I couldn't see him.

"Do you reckon exactly what happened?" The male doctor asks me.

"Yea, I was on his shoulders and he went into deep water and soon yelled " ow." So I freaked out and began looking down into the blood infested water but the next thing I know I was pushed off him and I didn't see him afterwards. I woke up here." I freak out, getting out of breath.

"Calm down ma'm, your friends are here to see you, Is that okay?" One of the female's ask and I nod. They pull the curtain back next to me and I look and see JC with huge stitches in his leg and his eyes are closed.

As soon as Kian walks in her burts into tears.