The BoyBand Project- Loving Zac

Hopeless In Romance

ZACS POV

I looked in the mirror for the 100th time and fixed my hair. I didn't know why I was so nervous. It was Mira, we'd done this a million times. But I guess it was different being... friends. The word gave me chills, I hated that she wasn't all mine. I know she loved me too but I figured out love won't get her back. It was weird because we never went through the whole 'friends' stage. The first time we tried a whole 'friends hanging out thing' we literally ended up making out the wholleeeee movie. I still don't know how First 50 Dates ends. Snapping out of my thoughts I grabbed my keys and texted Mira that I was on my way.

I knocked on the door and saw how big and beautiful the smile was on Mira's face, all the tension went away.

"BYE MOM, ZAC IS HERE!"

I could hear her mom scream the typical 'goodbye, have fun, be safe' as Mira closed the door. Returning the smile, I locked arms with her and led her to the car.

"So what's the movie?"

I couldn't help but smile.

"You'll see."

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I thought it would be cool to take her to one of those old fashioned, seventies type, drive in movies.

"I. Hate. You. Zac."

Mira clung to my arm and tried to disguise her breathing.

"It wasn't that bad!"

"The Conjuring is the scariest movie on the planet ever! Omg you never get to pick the movie again! Sorry but my pick next time!"

I smiled and pulled her closer.

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MIRAS POV

My heart was eating out of my chest. Seventy-five perfect because of the horrifying movie and twenty five because I was so close i swore I could hear Zac's lungs inflate as he took a breath. His smile and closeness some how made me feel safe and intimidated at the same time.

"Oh, so there could be a next time?"

My face burned as it turned about 200 shades of red. Remembering we weren't dating was hard but remembering what he said to me the night before wasn't. I pushed him away from me and gained all my confidence back. Staring at his perfect hazel eyes that sparkled even in the darkness, I smiled innocently.

"Duh! Friend."

I could tell by the look on his face, he knew that it was going to be harder than he thought. Being friends and winning me back. Even though I was warming up to the fact we were gonna be just friends for a while until a miracle of forgiveness took place, it was still weird knowing he was fighting silently for my attention. Leaning back in my seat as Zac drove me home, I couldn't help but evaluate everything that's happened so far. Getting together with Zac, fighting, getting closer, pulling apart, beaches, water guns, anniversaries, parties, cuddling, movies, etc. It kinda made me feel guilty that I blew all of that off but the feeling quickly subsided when I thought of all the cracks my heart was still trying to self repair. The silence in the car was nerve wrecking but Zac thankfully broke the silence.

"I have a question. So you're going to Disney World with us.. right?"

I kept my attention outside of the window but answered anyways in a mono tone.

"Yep. Front row, I always am."

A nervous laugh escaped his lips and at that point I could tell this wasn't just 'small talk'.

"Yeah, yeah you are. One more question."

"Uhm go for it."

I turned my head from the direction of the window and watched as the moon casted a beam of light across Zac's nervous facial expression.

"Do you think we have a chance.. like ever?"

"Well I think-"

"Because I love you... a lot."

"Yeah I know so-"

"And I want-"

"ZAC. SHUT. UP. NOW."

My tone became the impatient, loud whisper that you use on misbehaved three year olds. His mouth closed immediately and his head hung as much as possible while still being able to watch the road. I waited a while and then spoke up in a quiet tone of voice.

"Listen to me. You hurt me-"

"I know but-"

"Zac shut up."

His mouth instantly closed shut.

"Like I was saying, you hurt me but I still love you. My heart is just going through a self fix mode and I can't take dating you. Maybe one day, if my heart decides it's safe for you to come back, we will be together again. But I can't promise that. Were broken. Like a broken plate trying to be glued back together.. we have our cracks. I can't promise we will get married. I can't promise we will be together forever. I can't promise I'll always stick around. Remember, we went through that promising stage already and it didn't go so well. But I promise, I swear to you Zac Mann, I will always love you."

I stared at him for a bit longer but when he didn't say anything I turned back to the window. The car was silent but it wasn't awkward silence. The tension was thick but not awkward. I watched as the car pulled into my drive way. I thanked Zac for the fun and kissed his cheek.

"I had fun but next time... my movie choice."

The perfect Zac Mann smile appeared and washed over me.

"We'll see."

Giving me a hug, I walked inside and watched through the window as he sped off. Pulling out my phone I called the little brother aka fag. Nic.

"Hello fag!"

"Sup?"

"Your birthday is sooonnn!"

"Yep, finally a teenager!"

"Welcome to the struggle haha"

"You coming over?"

"Damn straight! But early present, tomorrow lets go shopping, I'll buy you anything you want."

"Is this some kind of trick? Am I being punked?"

I laughed out loud earning a stare from my mom.

"Haha shut up, you in or not dork?"

"Yeah I'm in."

"Pick you up at 4? After school."

"Ight, cool."

Hanging up the phone I ran and jumped on the couch with my mom. When I told her every detail about the 'hangout' with Zac, she looked at me for a while.

"Teenagers.. hopeless in romance."

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"If you want someone or something you act like you don't in hope the other person will catch a hint and do the exact opposite of what you said. Instead of saying DO SOME SUPERMAN/ROMEO/THE NOTEBOOK TYPE SHIT AND ILL LOVE YOU. Whether you admit it or not, that's all you want. A sign."

My moms words processed in my head for a while. Why is she always right?

"How did you-"

"Mom thing."

Nodding in 'enough said' fashion I went to my room and got ready for bed and school the next day.

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