illicit Relationship (Editing)

Ch 20: My Confession

“You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see, but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel.”

"Can you meet me some where special today?" I asked him afraid of what I was going to do. 

"Sure" he said. I could tell he was nervous. 

"Where we had our first date. At seven" I said walking out of his classroom.

I walked out of school were Kim was waiting for me. 

"Hey, what’s wrong?" she asked me nervously. 

"I think I might move town" I said thinking of the worst. But Kim is one of the best friends I’ve ever had, and although if I do leave her memories of me will fade, I will treasure mine forever. 

I’m just being cautious. If I abruptly leave, I don’t want her getting nervous. I want her to live in peace knowing I’m safe. At least until she stops worrying. 

"Why?" she asked me. I could hear her voice shake. She was trying really hard not to cry. 

"My parents are being transferred to another country." I said keeping my voice calm, although I felt almost as sad as she felt. 

"You’re leaving me?" she asked in disbelief. 

I couldn’t help but think of turning her, I’ve always wanted a vampire friend. 

And the last thing I wanted in this world was to be alone. 

I knew about Kim’s life at home. Her alcoholic mother and drug addicted father. But she never talked about. Never thought about it. She told me, about a year ago. She trusted me that much, and I couldn’t help but feel like a horrible friend. 

"I’m sorry. We have a week together. Let’s treasure it." I said smiling. 

She nodded and hugged me, finally letting herself cry.

When we were finished talking I walked home, sad that once again I am going to be completely alone.

A new place. New people. And truly alone, like I have been my whole life. 

***

I sat on the cliff, staring out at the lights illuminating our town. The sun had already gone down and the dark night sky looked beautiful. 

I heard someone clear their throat behind me. I already knew it was him, I heard him from a mile away.  

I patted the spot next to me, a couple seconds later Mr. Night and I were both sitting near the edge of a cliff.

"I love you" I said without turning to him. Right after I was finished talking to Kim, I went home then straight here. I sat here watching the sun set, and the stars come out. 

"I love you too" he said holding onto my hand. I think he might have been thinking that I was going to break up with him. 

"I know you do." I said turning to him. Tears in my eyes. "But after what I’m going to tell you, you won’t love me anymore." I said trying really hard not to cry, but the thought of Mr. Night being afraid of me hurt. 

It reminded me of the dream where he's very afraid of me, the look on his face...... 

"I love you Mr. Night..."  

"Joseph" he said correcting me. 

I chuckled humorlessly, "I love you joseph. And the last thing I want to do is have you fear me. But that’s just the way life is sometimes. We love someone we shouldn’t." I could feel the tears streaming down my face. 

"What’s wrong" he asked me, placing a hand on my cheek. 

I stood up and walked away from him. "I’m a killer. I’ve killed before and I’ll probably kill again." I said. I wasn’t looking at him, but his expression was probably one of fear and sadness. 

"I’m a vampire" I said not wanting beat around the bush. 

I turned to him, he was expressionless but I knew he was confused. He was about five feet from me, I walked up to him. In a second, appearing in front of him, his expression changing to one of shock and fear. 

"I’m sorry joseph, I wanted to tell you." I said turning around. "But I was scared you'd look at me like this. I’d never hurt you" I said before running away, but only about ten feet so that I could see him and make sure he got to his car safely. 

He stood there for a couple of minutes, staring out at the town. 

When he finally got into his car and left I started walking out of the forest that is until Edward decided to grace me with his presence. He had a huge smirk on his face as we both watched Mr. Night’s car drive away from here.

"My, my, you told him and ran away. Afraid he might reject you?" he said with humorously. But the thought of him laughing at me only made me angry, and it made me want to kick his ass.

I glared at him. "Edward. I’m not in the mood. Leave me alone." I said trying to get away from him. 

He stepped in front of me again though, getting on my last nerve. 

"Or you'll do what" he asked me while smirking down at me. 

I smirked and brought my knee between his legs, as hard as I could. 

Vampire or not, I know that hurt. Especially with my vampire speed and strength.

Then I started walking away. "Stay the hell away from me" I said while glaring at him.

Then I walked home and locked myself in my room. Crying myself to sleep because of the monster I became thanks to my first love.

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