Falling For My Teacher

26: Halloween Memories

"Harry please stop," I said, trying to push Harry of of me. Sitting the back seat of Zayn's car is not the best place for Harry and I. 

"I'm sorry Ryan," Zayn whispered. 

"Ryan?" Harry mumbled into my shoulder as he wrapped both his arms around my waist. I didn't want to give into him. Not even when he's drunk. Even though he's being adorable. "I'm sorry I pused you away." I didn't know how to answer that. Obviously he was lying. He's drunk. "I love you a lot Ryan. Like a lot." 

"You're drunk Harry," I sighed at the brutal reality. "I have a boyfriend. Remember?" God, why am I lying to him? I know I still like Harry.. But there's always that one guy my mind goes back to. 

"Niall's a dick. He left you when you needed him," he cursed. "I can be here." 

"Please stop," I finally hushed him. We finally made it to Harry's appartment, Harry almost passing out on my shoulder. Zayn had to help me guid Harry to his door. Once in, we placed him on his bed. 

"I'll be in the kitchen, cleaning up," Zayn said as he left the room. Great, that means I have to get Harry ready for bed. 

Just as I was about to leave the room, Harry called. "Ryan? Please stay." 

"I can't." 

"One night. Please?" he asked again, this time he was propped on his elbows. I sighed, laying down in the bed, next to him. He smiled, laying back down as I tried my hardest not to get into reaching distance. Why was this so tiring? I mean, I shouldn't be going back to Harry. Not when Niall is still out there. Or even Michael. 

"Ryan?" Harry's voice called again. 

"Yeah Harry?" 

"I'm sorry," he sighed. I can tell he was sobering up but I didn't know whether to believe him or not. "I'm sorry I hurt you. Or Niall. I really am." A moment of silence lingered between us. I don't know why I did it, but I let Harry wrap his arms around me. I let him cuddle into the back of my neck. "I just love you Ryan." 

"It's okay Harry," I finally sighed. "Go to sleep." 

"You will be here when I wake up yeah?" 

"Yes. I will." 

"Goodnight Ryan." And with that, I fell into a dark sleep as well. 

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I woke up with the heavy breathing of Harry's breath, running down my back. For a moment there, it seemed like everything was normal. That this was supposed to happen. Like I was meant to be in his arms. But I knew I couldn't. 

I tried to pry myself from his arms but he held me closer. "Spend the day with me." 

"I can't Harry I have to-"

"It's Halloween. There is a party tonight at city hall. Just, please. Come with me," he said basically leaning over me. His hair was a mess on top of his head as he looked down at me. 

"I don't have a costume." 

"We will get one today," he said, getting off of me. "It's a ball. So you'll need a mask and a pretty dress." He walked into the bathroom, almost as if nothing happened last night. "Get up then. Borrow one of my shirts. I don't care." He closed the bathroom door, leaving me in his dark room. 

I crawled out of bed, sitting on the edge of it. Memories flooded through my mind. I used to sleep here every weekend. Wake up, watch Friends while lying in bed. Him com in with coffee and breakfast. Cuddling up on his bed and just laughing. I would kill for that again. 

I walked towards his dresser, pulling open the bottom drawer. These were my things. Still shoved with his. I thought he would have at least packed them up. But he didn't. 

I pulled out a pair of my old jeans and one of Harry's shirts. It was big but I didn't care. It smelt like him too. Memories. 

"You found something?" He said, walking out in just a towel. I couldn't stare. I'm not going to stare. "Good. I'll be done in a minute." I nodded, watching him go back into the bathroom. It was so weird to be here like this again. Only I would have hopped in the shower with him. Maybe... I don't know. I really need to get past this. I can't be thinking like this. 

I walked around, looking at all the small details. The pictures still haven't moved. My clothes are still here. Even the stain from my Jamba Juice. Everything is still here. 

"Ready?" Harry asked, walking out of the bathroom with a beanie and his converses already on. I nodded, following him out of the room. Zayn must have left last night after I didn't come out. I hope he doesn't feel different about me. Oh god.. What if he does? 

Harry opened his car door for me, letting me slide in. He ran to the drivers seat, starting the car. 

Halloween. 

Oh god I hate this holliday. 

"So what kind of even is it?" I asked as we pulled into the "Mid Evil" store. Not kidding, this is what it was called. 

"It's a ball. You know with masks and stuff," he replied, opening the store door, letting me walk in. We were greeted by a lady, asking if we needed help. 

"I think we've got this," Harry replied. "Alright, lets pick you out a dress." I nodded, going towards the walls and racks of ball gowns. I picked a few, going to the dressing room. "You're going to let me see right?" 

"I guess," I replied, unsure. I don't know what to think of this day.

The first dress was a peachy color that was right up to my neck. It was probably the worst dress ever. "Oh god no," he remarks. I just laughed walking back in. 

"This is pointless Harry," I finally commented. "All these dresses are for like.. Old people." 

"Then you'll be a hot old person," he laughed. I couldn't help but blush. I didn't reply, only walking out in the next dress. Which was black and gold and felt like plastic. 

"No." I nodded, running back in. 

I was down to the last dress and it wasn't very old timish. It was more of a modern look. It was a cream colored dress with black lace around the shoulders. It wasn't puffy. It wasn't old ladyish. It was perfect. 

I walked out to see Harry immdiantly stop talking to the lady. His eyes watched my every move as I looked in the mirror. 

"Yeah?" I asked, trying to break his day dream. 

"Umm ye- yeah," he cleared his throat. "Yes that one." He got up and walked towards the mens area. I just giggled, going back into the dressing room. 

While checking out, I saw Spencer run into the store. Of all people, of course it's Spencer. 

"Okay I have news," she was out of breath. "Wait. You two are going together?" I nodded as Harry towered over me from behind. Spencer looked nervous. More than usual. "That's adorable. I was just meeting Louis here to match outfits. We're going together." 

"That's sweet," I smiled. 

"I guess we will see you," Harry said, pulling me with his free hand. 

"I could have taken my dress," I whispered as he gently placed the items in the back of the car. He didn't answer. 

That's when, in the corner of my eye. I saw two people who I thought had vanished off the face of the Earth. 

Niall and Mr. Liam Payne. 

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UPDATE!!! IT IS TO be continued. I'm really sorry I haven't updated. It was cause of school and lame ass test and stuff. But i will do a double update. The next chapter will be out tonight! I hope. If not tomorrow! 

Love you all! 

Ryan's dress on the side.