Lost for You

Chapter 6

"Chip?" he asks but I shake my head at his attempt to get me to eat.

"What do you want Harry?" I ask looking straight into eyes that arent as bright and full of life as I remember.

" I just... last night I ... when you... argh fuck" he says hitting his hand hard against the wooden table and I can tell he's having trouble getting the words out.

"Harry..." I say softly, almost going to reach for his hand but decide not to, "I just want you to know that if I had known or was aware of what happened that night I would have given anything to stay with you. I want you to know that I didnt abandon you on purpose, I was furious at my parents when I found out they took away from you. I cant even begin to imagine what you went through that night. I would do anything to turn back the clock and change it all to stay with you but I had no idea what was going on when we left. I hurt every day for you Harry. I loved you, you were my bestfriend" my voice hitches at the end and I cover my mouth to stop it from letting out another whimper.

Harry looks up at me with the most concerned expression on his face "I know that now Jamie, I know .I was just so angry at everyone because I has no one. Not even you. Out of all people who I thought would be with me for the rest of my life, you left and I didnt understand why. I was so angry with you Jamie for so long. I had no one to talk to, and you were the only person I trusted to open up to so I had to keep to inside of me and I just got angrier and angrier. Until I found other ways to let out my frustration. Girls were my new distraction. I would just....nevermind" he says looking up at me after I let out a gasp after I realise what he's going to say. "but the thing that upsets me the most is this entire time I have been so selfish. While I was hating you every single day, and lashed out at you last night, you were worried about me yet your parents death should have been your main priority and I'm so so sorry Jamie." he says looking up at me now, sincerity clear in his voice. 

Before I know it I'm reaching across to him and pull him into a tight hug. All the pain, crying and guilt I felt for him I try make up for in this tight embrace to let him now I am there for him. He doesnt hug me back for a few moments but eventually he puts his arms around me. "Ive missed you so much." I whisper over his shoulder, tears tingling my eyes.

"Ive missed you too" he mumbles in his low raspy voice.

"I will never leave you again. I promise."

As we slowly pull away we pause with our faces merely inches away from eachother and I can feel his warm breath on my lips. My heart begins to race as I look down at his perfectly formed mouth that is slightly open.

"What the fuck is this?" I hear someone squawk.

Harry and I both pull away from eachother and look up at the exact same time to see the girl he was making out with that day standing with her arms folded across her chest.

"Olivia" Harry says standing quickly to his feet and moves to her.

"Yes Olivia" she imitates him rudely. Her hair is black and shorter now. Is this the same girl? No it definitely is, she has the exact same disgusted face she had on when she saw me the first time. "I said what the fuck is this?" she stares at me now pushing the question towards me. She raises one of her eyebrows that features a black piercing.

"We were just talking" Harry defends "This is Jamie. She's an old friend of mine"

"You mean an old fuck buddy?" she almost scoffs.

"Uhhh no we are definitely not that" I say and try to smile.

"So what the fuck are you doing here then?"

"Just talking" I shrug. We were just talking really. It was just after that hug... I dont know what that was.

"Well you can take that fake barbie smile of yours and fuck off now well Harry fucks me" she says with her hands on her hips.

Fake barbie smile? The only one looking fake here is her with her piles of makeup painted across her face. 

"Olivia..." Harry warns her in a deep tone.

"What? Either she goes or I go. It's your choice. She's not even your type. Look at her. Fresh faced little angel with big blue disney eyes. Please Harry you know she wouldnt satisfy you." she looks me up and down.

I dont want to make Harry chose between me and his girlfriend. He should stick by his girlfriend even though she is the rudest girl I have ever come across.

"It's OK. I'll go" I say standing to my feet.

"Jamie you don't..." Harry begins to say.

"It's OK. I'll see you around" I finish before walking off back though the house.

"Stupid skank" I hear Olivia mutter under her breath as I walk past.

"Don't you fucking dare call her that..." I hear Harry saying but his voice fades off as I almost make it to the front sliding doors. I hope he explains to her that we really are just friends. Even though she was overly rude, I would be just as protective if it was my boyfriend I saw with his face so close to another girl. Maybe not as harsh but I would definitely be questioning it which makes me feel even worse for even thinking about Harrys lips for the slightest second.

"You leaving?" Louis asks while sitting on a huge couch.

"Yeah" I try to smile even though I'm still a bit baffled by Olivias outburst.

"She wasnt very happy was she?" he smiles obviously humoured by the situation of Olivia storming through.

"Um no she wasnt. But nothing was happening, honestly. Harry and I were just talking" I try to explain.

"Oh right. Just talking" he says emphasising the "just talking" as if he doesnt believe it.

"No seriously. Harry and I are childhood friends. We were just catching up" I say and his face looks astonished like he's surprised and finally believes me.

"Oh OK. I didnt know that. So you coming to his party next weekend?" He asks.

"Party for...?" I ask.

"His birthday.." Louis looks at me suspiciously "I thought you guys were childhood friends?"

"We were. We just havent spoken in ages" I say feeling guilty about forgetting his birthday. When we were little I always would give him my very own home made gift along with one of my favourite belongings. Seems stupid now but at the time it was the best thing to give Harry something of mine to keep forever. I wonder what happened to all those gifts..

"What the fuck are you still doing here!" Olivia is yelling now as she storms towards me.

"Calm down Olivia. Theyre just friends, no need to get your skanky knikers in a twist." Louis says and rolls his eyes and continues watching the TV.

"Fuck off Louis" she spits back screwing her face up at him.

He keeps his eyes on the TV and simply raises his middle finger to her. He obviously doesn't like her either and I let out a small giggle as he really doesn't care what she thinks of him.

Olivia quickly turns to me with the most venemous look on her face and before she can say anything else I quickly walk out of the house and txt my brother to come pick me up..