Test me| (Jungkook/Halla)

27- Fools

I can't sleep tonight. Even though I'm lying save in Jungkook's arms and feel his breathing on my skin, I can't calm down like I used to.

I'm afraid.

I'm afraid of tomorrow.

I don't know, what will happen. I don't know what I should do.

I know now, that I have decided, a long time ago, that living without Dad is normal and fair. I don't know why, or how, but thinking of it, I feel, the best for all of us would be to never see each other again.

To not get hurt anymore.

The problem is, he is here. And it hurts like hell.

I don't know what to do. I don't know what to think. Jungkook can't help me either and I can see the worry in his eyes, as he tries to think of something.

But what can I do?

Go back to him already? Or let him leave again?

Will he stay?

I don't notice myself crying. I curse under my breath, when I feel the tears splattering on my cheeks. I thought, I'd cried enough today.

I feel myself getting squeezed a little tighter from Jungkook and his lips touching my hair.

"It will be okay", he whispers into my hair and I can hear the sleep in his voice.

My eyes close shut and I let out a deep sigh, scared, more than ever in my life. But Jungkook lets his finger rub small circles on my skin and I suddenly feel calmer again.

"You just have to talk to him tomorrow. Just listen to what he has to say", Jungkook mumbles and his breath meets my cheek.

I turn around in his arms and snuggle into his chest. His heartbeat is steady and mine copies it.

"Can you... sing for me?", I shyly request and bury myself further into his embrace.

There is silence for a second before he chuckles and breathes in deeply.

Then he starts singing silently and I close my eyes, smiling and blushing slightly.

It's in english.

"I am tired of this place

I hope people change

I need time to replace what I gave away

And my hopes, they are high,

I must keep them small

Though I try to resist,

I still want it all..."

I feel myself melting in his arms as I slowly drift off to sleep with his honey voice in my ears. He caresses my hair and I smile before I once again, fall asleep in his arms, with no more worries in my mind.

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I stand in front of the door, breathing in deeply and fiddling with my fingers.

I feel Jungkook's gaze on me and turn around slightly, meeting his eyes.

He returns my worried and scared gaze for a while and then smiles for a second.

"Come right over afterwards, okay?", he smiles.

I nod and squeeze his hand for a second before letting it go. Jungkook turns around and walks down the stairs and I see him throwing an uneasy look towards the door.