The Life of Being a Foster Kid//5sos **ON HOLD**

Chapter 34: hurting

LUKE
I needed to end it. I hated hurting her. I hated hurting. I can't live a life of pain and regret. I finished tying the rope and looked at my phone one more time. Twitter: @)livs5sos- I can't lose you no matter how much you hurt me.
I've made it worse. Ring I heard my phone go off and looked at my lock screen one last time before I checked the notification, my lock screen is a picture of us kissing. I shook my head and looked at the notification.
From: Babygirl😍
Listen Luke no matter how much breaking up hurt I love you so much and you can't leave me like this. I want to grow old with someone I love and right now all I want is you.

This is all a bad dream. I never said that to her and if I close my eyes then open them we'll be back on the plane, together. I stepped up on the chair and put the rope around my neck ready to go. All of the sudden I saw the same picture on my screen light up. I desperately needed to hit decline but I can't do that to my princess.
(L-Luke O-Olivia)
L-hi
O-LUKE OH MY GOD PLEASE STOP WHAT EVER YOU ARE DOING AND LISTEN TO ME. STEP OFF THAT CHAIR OR STOOL OR PUT DOWN THE PILL BOTTLE AND GET ON A FLIGHT TO AMERICA AND GO SEE YOUR KID.
L- Liv I just can't-
O- No Luke you do what I say right now you are not going to die today you are not going to die in this way I love you way too much you need to stop repack your bags and promise me you will be in that child's life.
L- Liv I promise okay I promise you a lot, but I always break the promises
O- Everyone makes mistakes when they don't mean too Luke
L- I love you so much Babe,
O- no Luke you lost the privilege to call me that
L- but..
O- some mistakes hurt too much Luke.
*call ended*
I guess I better get back to the airport.

LIV
Luke actually listened, but just wasn't the one. One too many chances. "Shh Liv it will be okay!" "No it won't Mikey! He's ruined my life and I've ruined his I can't live like this it's not okay! I don't want your comfort you know what I'm totally fine get out." I saw his face soften. "You know what it's getting late. Goodnight." He slammed the door on the way out. I laid down and started to sob.
*2hours later*
I heard the boys snoring, but I also heard Michael incoherently mumbling. I had been and still am crying. I opened the door and knocked next to Michaels bunk. "Liv? Why are you awake?" "I'm sorry Mikey." I started to sob into the crook in his neck. "Come on you can sleep with me tonight." He pulled the covers back and I cuddled into his chest. I was drifting to sleep when I felt him kiss my head. "I'll protect you from now, on. Don't worry Liv."