The Life of Being a Foster Kid//5sos **ON HOLD**

Chapter 36: I hate you I love you.

LIV

"So Liv where to first?" Angelina asked. "I know I promised myself that I would stay at a hotel, but I think I can stay at the house Ang. I'm a big girl and need to accept that it happened." I was driving down the main road getting ready for the turn to the old house. "Are you sure about-" "Yes I'm sure okay? Now don't talk about so I don't change my mind."

*skip to pulling into the driveway*

I parked the car and looked at the house. Everyone started getting out and Calum looked at me confused. "Aren't you coming in?" "I need a couple minutes. I think I'm gonna take a drive down somewhere else see if my grandma's house is still standing." He nodded and got back in. "what are-" "I want you to take me around." I sighed and nodded. "Hey guys we're gonna drive around see what's still standing we'll pick up some pizza from my fav place text me if you need anything while I'm out." I said pulling out and driving off.

*at my grandmas house*

"Come here Calum I want to show you something!" I said going up the stairs in the house. He chuckled and followed me. "Damnit they cut the string off and now I can't pull it." I huffed sitting on the floor pouting. "Wait pick me up and put me by it." I said standing back up.

CALUM

I chuckled putting my hands on her thighs and bending down so she was on one of my shoulders. She squealed and started giggling. "Ok then Macho Man." She said looking down at me smiling. I smirked and said, "Guess what else is Big and Strong!" Her eyes widened then she smirked back. "I know you mean your dick and I can confirm that sadly."I felt my face heat up and that slight smirk of hers became more evident. She finally pulled the door down and squealed in excitement. "Hurry put me down so I can pull down the ladder!" She practically yelled. I put her down and she basically said fuck the ladder once she got it down. She went up 4 steps and then hoisted herself onto the floor. I did the same as she turned the light on. "There should be an old Bass over there." She pointed to a corner. "Oh and also grab my guitar while you're over the please. I have to set up my recording stuff so we can play."

*after putting everything together*

LIV

Cal sat next to me as I flipped the it on and fairly lights lit up, microphones turned on, and the old recording device turned on. "Hit the play button!" I said putting in a tape. He did and I heard an old song I wrote play.

(just pretend its an original lol)

"I hate you I love you I hate that I love you don't want to but I cant put nobody else above you I hate you I live you I hate that I want you you want her you need her but I will never be her." And it ended. I hadn't noticed I was crying until Calum spoke up. "Liv don't cry." "Cal turn it off" I said so soft I could barely hear myself. "Liv-" "please Calum I can't do this." He nodded and we turned everything off and took the instruments downstairs. "You can have the bass. It was my cousin's. He uh- he's still in jail for what he did and stuff, but he didn't know how to play anyway." I said putting the stuff I wanted in the car. "I cant keep this Liv." "God damnit Calum put it in the car so we can go get the pizza before I have a breakdown." He put his hands up in surrender and got in and we drove off.