Nick's POV
My legs were shaking as I sat in the waiting room for Joe and Demi to arrive. After signing all the paperwork with Shay, they kicked me out so they could start. I couldn't stop thinking about what she had confessed earlier. It literally broke me and I was mad. I wasn't mad at her anymore, I was mad at Joe. It is just as much her fault as it is his, but Joe knew how deeply I felt about her.
"Nick!" I heard him call out. I stood up and we ran towards each other with Demi at his heel. I immediately started crying as he held my head while we hugged. I realized I didn't have time to be mad at him, I needed him. He took a step back, cupping my face and cleaned my tears with his thumb. "What happened? Where's Shannon?" he calmly asked and I started to get hysterical again. I looked at Demi and saw she was crying as well. "Nick look at me.. Where is she?" he asked again.
"Joe, let's sit him down, and you go get him some water," Demi instructed wrapping her arms around my side and guiding me back to my chair. She sat next to me rubbing my hands until Joe came back with a small plastic cup of water. They watched as I drank it, then Demi took the trash from my hands and held it in her lap. I took a deep breath while they waited patiently for me to answer.
"We loss the baby," I sniffled. Demi gasped and threw her arms around me. Joe sat quietly and stared at my shoes.
"Is she going to be okay?" He asked not making eye contact.
"She's going to be," I responded.
"Are you going to be okay?" He asked now looking at me. I slowly nodded my head. His eyes soften and he took ahold of my hand.
"Mr. Jonas?" We all quickly stood up to face Dr. Leslie. He introduced himself to Joe and Demi before he continued to speak. "You're wife did fine with the removal, but I'm afraid I can't let her go just yet. After examining her body, she will not be able to hold another baby. She has decided to get her tubes tied to eliminate the risk. You may proceed to get physical if you'd like, but should give it at least 24 hours. Maybe less, it depends on the woman. Give me 10 more minutes and I'll wheel her out as soon as I'm done."
"A woman is not going to do this?" Joe asked.
"Excuse me?" Dr. Leslie questioned.
"I don't feel comfortable with a mans hand exploring that part of her body," Joe told him aggressively and Dr. Leslie smiled.
"I can assure you that I'm a professional and that's something you don't need to worry about." Demi pulled him back and I was relieved he even asked. Truthfully, I thought the same thing. "I get questioned all the time, so there are no hard feelings. I use my hands strictly for business." Dr. Leslie then walked away and we all sat back down.
"Strictly for professional business or personal business?" Joe muttered to himself. Demi slapped him hard on the arm.
"Shut up and trust that the doctor will do what he says."
"Which part?" I asked and she slapped me as well, only not as hard. Joe and I both let out a laugh while Demi rolled her eyes.
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It's been a couple of days since we've been home and I have yet to talk to Joe about what Shay had told me. I knew now was not the time and I didn't want to upset Shay more then she needed to be. She's been very quite and depressed since everything and I feel for her. I was going through this as well.
Later tonight I found her still in our bed watching TV. I turned it off and crawled on the bed in front of her.
"You were right," she said staring at me. "You don't know what you've got till it's gone and now that she's gone, I wish I could have her back."
