December 22 2010
in two days it will be christmas eve, i only have thirty pounds to buy phil something lovely. i havent asked what he wants yet, but i know what he likes. he likes cheesy shirts, colorful socks, scented things, and plants. its a wide variety of things, and i have no idea what to get him yet. im not expecting anything back, i usually never get anything for christmas anyways.
i looked over to phil, who was sat next to me on the couch drinking, yet another mug of coffee. he compulsivley drinks coffee during the winter, and uses 'the spirit of christmas' as an excuse, i find it very heart warming. i stared mindlessly at his eyes still, they looked so mesmerizing, and they never failed to pull me in. i constantly got lost in his icy eyes, they were simply too beautiful not to stare at.
he turned his head, and caught me staring. i saw his cheeks flsuh a soft pink against his pale skin, i could feel myself heating up at his intense glare.
"h-hows your c-coffee" i mumbled, clearly flustered.
"its g-good"
i nodded, i didnt know what else to say, the air had become thick too fast, so i stood up, and got myself a cup of water. i didnt let what just happened get to my head. it was nothing, it was only a bit of awkwardness, its my fault for staring, anyways. who does that? i finished pouring the water, and sat on a bar stool. i took a minute to appreciate phils flat again. i adored it so much. the furniture matched the wall colors so perfectly, and it all just fit so well together. all of his furniture were of the same texture, shape, and color. it was very peaceful. and to add onto that it had a distinct smell to it, it was absolutely lovely, i couldn't get enough of it. phils sense of fashion and color was what i enjoyed about him as well. living in a house like his was only one of my only wishes.
i got pulled out of my thoughts by phil, who was waving his hand in front of my face. he smiled cutely, and took a seat next to me.
"sorry, got lost for a bit." i blushed, i hated when people noticed me zoning out.
"thats okay, i was just going to tell you im about to go out to grab some gifts."
my eyes lit up at the thought of phil buying me a gift. "okay, i should go too, i need to get your gift."
he smiled, and nodded at me, "okay are you ready?"
i looked down at what i was wearing. just a plain grey shirt with a jacket over it, which had a ton of unnecessary zippers on it, some grey-ish skinny jeans and some plain black shoes. i'd say mt outfit was fit to go out into town with, so i nodded, and we made our way to an outlet filled with loads of good stores. and it was a good time, as the stores all had christmas discounts on it.
"we're going to have to separate for a bit. i dont want you to see what im getting, so heres my snapchat, snap me if you see anything you think i might like or if your ready to leave okay?"he handed me a small paper with his name on it, and we split up.
i stuffed my hands in the silky pockets, and began my adventure through a town i dont know my way around. this should be fun. i walked past many tempting starbucks stands, and many cool stores, but none of them screamed 'phil' to me yet. until i walked past a store filled with coffee mugs and cozy blankets. it was a winter based store, and so i walked in. i was afraid i wouldnt have enough money for the things i wanted, i dont want to disappoint phil.
i went on looking for something good anyways, and i found the perfect thing. there was a huge candle on the counter, it smelled of vanilla, which i thought would accompany his pine-scented house quite nice. it was placed in a jar which was somewhat shaped like a deformed cat. i know phil likes cats but he cant have one because hes allergic. so i thought i'd get him that. it was only about 18 pounds anyways. i also got him a soft duvet, it had cartoon lions printed all over it. it was fluffy, and it had a built in heating system. i knew he always complained about being cold in the night, so i thought he'd appreciate that. i decided that was enough, as i had wasted 48 pounds already, so i texted phil, and told him to meet me at a starbucks near us both. he said he'd be there in five minutes, so i walked over there, taking my time.
i really enjoyed winter around here. it always smelled of coffee and the coldness felt good against my cheeks. i'd always taken a liking to cold weather, it felt like someone was hugging me.
i made it to the store quickly, and took a seat in the light brown chairs. they reminded me of phils chairs. they were comfy and they had the same texture as them, though the color was off a bit. i heard the bell ding, and saw the raven haired boy walk over to me, a big smiled plastered on his face. he had multiple bags in his hand, which i did not bother reading what stores they were from, i didnt want to spoil anything for myself.
"we should try the christmas drinks!" he beamed up at the menu, and placed his bags down. i laughed at his enthusiasm, and we ordered.
"draw a christmas tree on the window dan" he smiled at me, and began to draw his own little tree. i drew one on the foggy window, and laughed at his tree, which looked nothing like a christmas tree at all. our orders came, i got a toffee and almond hot chocolate, which i had never tried before. the selections here were very different from where i lived. phil got a caramel frappe, and we both drank in silence, occasionally laughing at people who walked past us.
when we finished we both grabbed our bags and started walking back home. walking back was worse than i thought it would be. my toes were cold and my nose felt frozen. i shivered, and crossed my arms, trying as hard as i can to keep my hands warm. phil saw me shivering, and stopped. "p-phil whats w-wrong lets hurry up. i dont want my toes to freeze!"
he reached into a yellow bag, and pulled out a girly looking jumper. "here put this on, it was meant for my mum but you can use it. i know your sweaters thin."
i blushed, and felt my cheeks warm up against the cold breeze. "t-thanks" i tugged it on quickly, and kept walking. the small things, like this, that phil did were always heart warming to me, he doesn't know how much they really mean to me. i looked over at him. his cheeks were pale, and i could see his teeth chattering. he looked cold as well, i wish he had kept the jacket for himself.
we got home, finally ending my pain, and the first thing we both did was wrap the presents. "we've got nowhere to put them. we should go buy a tree tomorrow" he pouted, and put his presents next to mine. i left the blanket out, i mainly bought it as a present for both of us to enjoy together for the remaining days before christmas. i pulled it out of the last bag and brought it over to phil, who had two mugs of hot chocolate for us both, and a movie for us to watch.
"phiill?!" i called from upstairs. he ran over to the foot of the stairs, and looked up at me.
"yeah?"
i pulled out the blanket over dramatically, "look what i go-" i was interrupted by my body being throw down the stairs. i had taken a few steps, and slipped on the blanket, phils stairs were wood, and the blanket was soft, so it slipped easily.
i tumbled down the stairs, basically flying into phils open arms. my knees landed on the floor, and the rest of my body flew into phils chest. i propped myself up on my palms, and saw the position we were both in. i was hovering over phils chest, one hand rested beside his head, and the other on his chest. i could feel him breathing, and it was nice and calming but also really weird, so i stood up, coughing awkwardly.
"erm...sorry about that" i reached for his hand, rubbing the back of my neck. he just smiled, a deep blush spread on his cheeks.
"i-its okay"
we both brushed it off and pretended nothing happened, but i couldn't stop thinking about how close our faces were. so close i could feel his warm breath on my face. and i could feel his heartbeat.
i sighed, and looked over to him, he was asking me what movie i'd prefer, i chose nightmare before christmas, as we watched wall-e already. so we both cradled ourselves on the couch, our shoulders touching. we were drinking our chocolate milk, and the blanket was wrapped snugly around our shoulders and arms. he seemed to enjoy the heating feature, and it made me happy how much he gushed over it.
i smiled to myself, taking in my bottom lip between my teeth. phil was just wonderful, and i dread to think about how sad i'll be when i have to go back home. to no one. there will be no phil there. no pine-scented homes. no one to love.
a/n
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