June 11 2011
phils pov
today is dans twentieth birthday. he's laying in my arms and were laying on the couch together. after last night i feel as if i should be more gentle with dan. i learned that he liked to take things slow and i love that. he likes to relish in the moment.
i have today planned out. i dont know if everything will carry out alright but i hope it does. dan deserves everything i can offer him. the first thing i want to do to start his day off is make his favorite breakfast, one that i learned a while a back. his mum used to make it when he was a child and i know hes home sick right now, so as a surprise, ive invited his mum to come to see dan today as a gift. she will be arriving in about one hour or so. i know dan will love it. just the simplicity of it all and the meaning i put into it. i also bought him a few gifts which im looking forward to giving to him.
i looked down at dan and blushed at how gorgeous he was and now all of that is mine. i smiled and gently pushed his arms off my waist as i got up. i pulled on a hoodie and pyjama pants and went into the kitchen.
i rummaged through the cupboards and began preparing chocolate chip pancakes, over easy eggs, and a cup of coffee. i made enough for me, his mum, and him. and as i was setting the third plate with the cooked food, i heard sweet mumbles and sleepy sighs.
"dan?" i finished setting the plate, and i walked over to the couch. i saw his eyes creaking open and his chest rising slowly. he looked up at me and smiled, reaching for my cheeks.
"mm phil why'd you have to wake me up" he cupped my face and ran his thumb across my cheek, i moved into his touch and fell on top of him, straddling him as he lay there, arms around my waist, and mine on each side of his face.
"happy birthday ba-" i didnt know if he would be okay with me calling him baby so i cut myself off.
"phil please call me baby" i felt his hands tighten on my sides, i think i found his weakness.
i leaned into his neck, "okay baby"
i laughed into his neck as i felt his skin shiver and tremble underneath my touch, i loved how weak i made him.
i pushed myself up and let my lips linger onto his, letting him breath me in. i pressed my lips onto his, and held it long enough to let him know i meant it. i broke the kiss and jumped off the couch, grabbing his pants and jumper for him to put on as i went back to the sink to wash up. i finished and showed dan to his seat, handing him his coffee. "dont eat yet dan."
i felt my phone buzz and saw a text from dans mum. she was outside and waiting, so i opened the door and showed her to the table.
dan looked over to me and saw his mum, his face was in complete shock, he nearly dropped his coffee. he jumped up from his seat and ran over to her, engulfing her in his arms. she broke the hug and dan gave her a tearful kiss on the cheek and showed her to her seat. dan thanked me profusely and showered me in small kisses. i laughed and took a seat and we all spent some time sipping coffee and catching up on things.
i spent most of the time washing up the dishes and watching the way dans face lit up when his mum spoke. i didnt interfere much with their conversation. i wanted dan to enjoy, so i sat back until it was about time to give dan his presents.
i reached behind the couch and pulled out a colorful bag stuffed with black tissue paper. i looked over at dan and handed the bag to him. he took it and sat down on the couch. he dug into the wrapping straight away and emptied it until only his presents were left inside.
he first pulled out my green hoodie, which i sprayed with my sweetly scented perfume which i know dan loves, as a way for him to have a piece of me when he leaves. he turned and looked at me with rosy cheeks and wrinkly eyes. i smiled back and he pulled out the next present.
it was a black candle that smelled similar to my house, and attached to it was a spare key to my flat with a small note on it. "you will always have a place in my home, dan." he gave me another tearful smile and leaned over to hug me. there was one last present for him to open from me, and i know it'd mean the most to him.
he pulled out a plain black card and opened it gently. inside was a picture of me and dan on the day we first met. we were at the train station and dan and i both had on plaid shirts. he flipped the picture over with, now trembling fingers, and revealed another note from me.
dan,
its your 20th birthday today. im sat on the small chair near the couch watching you sleep. your so beautiful. i knew that from the day we took this picture. and i knew then id never want to let you go. and i never will. i hope you have an amazing birthday dan. ♡
much love, phil.
and as he finished reading it, he looked over to me once again with tears in his eyes and red in his cheeks. and it was at that moment that we both realized we had something special. the way his hands held mine so tight his knuckles turned white, and the way he looks at me with such emotion in his eyes and the way the roses on his cheeks bloom when i kiss his nose or hold in hand. i knew i loved him.
and as he cried tears of love for me, i held him and i rubbed circles into his back. by that time his mum had gone upstairs to give us privacy, and the tear stained photo was laying on the couch. everything was so surreal. the way he smelled, the feeling of his tears falling onto my shirt. i cant believe im falling in love with dan.
"phil i care about you so much it hurts and i never want to leave you again. im so glad your here with me." he wiped his face and his glossy eyes looked into mine. i held his face and caught his tears as they fell, like rain on pavement. they were endless, but beautiful and meaningful.
"ill always be here, dan"
he smiled and as his roses bloomed again, i pulled him close into my chest and let him rest on me. i felt his fingers cling onto my shirt as if he would never let go. i don't want him to let go.
i held onto him, and whispered "i want this to last forever. can we make it last dan?"
"forever, phil."
a/n
it seems i wrote this during an emotional flurry of sadness but thats alright i hope ur day was good. tell me about it if you like !!
-amie
