Stuck In Your Own Head

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His smile
Creating butterflies so deep in my stomach,
only the touch of his lips to mine,
could cure the deep churning ραιи within.
His eyes would roam over the length of my not so perfect body,
Leaving me to think,
that not just the goosebumps that settled on my arms
and the elephant stampede in my stomach,
Could be just a one way fling.
The way his hand caressed my own left me to think,
that this,
was not the first time his charm has been used.
Questioning myself has become a daily thing when i'm around him.
He makes me rethink my whole existence.
Leaving a feeling of concededness and insecurity in my mind
He will never read this because it's too personal,
I do love him and i am too scared to admit it.
Letting someone in means,
letting myself out.
Something i vowed not to do ever again.
The first person who handled my unknowing heart
ρlayed and toyed with it till it finally broke.
Then threw it away like it meant nothing.
Sad to say, i believed their lies
The
"I love you"s
and
"You're beautiful"
Why did they make it seem so much like the truth?
So i pull away
so many times.
Keeping my distance.
That's why i left, he knew too much
All the secrets he could use against me.
Now someone else has his attention,
and i'm no longer first on the list.
He is no longer mine,
He is hers,
what she says goes.