Attraction // h.s {COMPLETE}

28- Break

28

He keeps looking to the floor...in silence... the only thing I can hear it's his breath, even that we are not very close...He is breathing very slowly, probably trying to contain his angry.
"Harry do you know what? We are too drunk to have this conversation right now...we can talk about it tomorrow"
He looks to me.
"Okay...then please answer me tomorrow" He says getting up
"Stay"
"What?"
"I won't let you come back home like this...you can sleep here tonight"
"But I thought-"
"It doesn't mean that we are okay...but it's not because we argued that I'll let you risk your life driving this drunk"
He opens a smile...not a very excited one...but he probably felt more comfortable with me telling him this.
"No...don't even start smiling...we will talk tomorrow"
I say going to my room
"Abby"
"What?"
"Can I sleep with you?"
"What? Of course not... you'll sleep on the sofa"
"But Abby-"
"It's not because I let you stay that we are fine...now let me sleep my head is already hurting."
"Fine"

I wake up and hear a very loud noise...like something was dropped on the floor. It's better I check what's that.

"Harry?" I say looking to him, who is on the kitchen with one pan on his hands.
"Hey...Abby sorry I didn't mean to wake you" He says getting something from the floor.
"It's...okay" My head is killing me...this pain doesn't stop... but at the same time I'm still confused of what is Harry doing.
"I made breakfast"
"Oh...thanks...I think" I say sitting on the chair in front of the stand that divides the kitchen and the living room.
"Here I made waffles... I know you like it"
He says giving me a plate with three waffles.
"How was your night?" he asks
"My head hurts" I say very grumpily
"Do you want some aspirin?"
"Would be good" I say

After he gave me a aspirin we ate our breakfast just in silence...I can literally feel the tension between us.
"So...Is Lydia at home?" I say breaking the awkward silence.
"No...she sent you a message saying she would sleep at Stefan's"
"Oh...okay... wait... how you know she sent me a message?"
"You forgot your phone with me"
"Oh...okay"
We keep in silence again.
"Abby" he breaks the silence
"We need to talk" I say
"Yeah... so what's going to happen now?" he asks
"I don't know Harry"
"Look Abby..." he takes a long breath "I know that what happened yesterday only happened because you drank and we argued just before so I think we should..."
"It's not like that...you don't know how I feel...true I only kissed him because of the alcohol but because I wouldn't have courage to do it sober... but you Harry...you made me do it"
"Why?"
"Because you acted like I'm literally yours...like I can't talk to anyone unless you... and I hate this"
"I didn't!"
"You didn't? So why you freaked out when Lucas bought me a drink"
"Abby...please you have to understand that he only did that because he wanted to fuck you"
I slap his face. He looks to me with his hand where I slapped.
"Abby"
"I hate you... I didn't... I was just mad but now I hate you"
"But Abby...it's true...he wanted to..." he pauses "to sleep with you".
"No Harry, unlike you not everybody thinks only about that." I just wake up and I already regret doing this. 
"But even with all of this you shouldn't have kissed him" He probably didn't know what to say after I said that so he came back with the kiss story.
"We already talked about that"
"Fuck it...you shouldn't do it anyway"
"The same way that you shouldn't act like I'm your propriety"
He doesn't stop passing his hand in his hair. He always does it when he is nervous or worried about something.
"I'm sorry okay...I'm sorry... but it's your fault...you literally fuck with my head you let me crazy...every time you say that you're not like the girls I know you are right...because you aren't... that's why I love you...Abby...I...I...I don't know what happens with me when I'm with you...you changed me, I didn't drink like I used to do since I started seeing you. That's why...that's why I freaked out yesterday... I just don't wanna lose you...never" he shouts.
I keep silent...He said so many things I have to think before saying something.
"Harry...I...I don't know what to say to you"
"So don't...please let's forget what happened yesterday. I forget the kiss you forget my behavior and we can keep things like were before" he says calmly
"It's not that easy"
"Why? What's not that easy?"
"Because I know that if I forget it now you will do it again and I hated the way you treated me yesterday"
"I won't I promise"
"I can't, sorry, at least not now. Let's take a break...so we can think"
"We don't have to" He says coming closer to me.
"But I have to" I say getting away from him
"Just a break...I just want time to think" I explain again
"Fine...a break" He finally says
"Thanks" I say sitting on the sofa
"But we don't have to ignore each other right?"
"No...of course not...we will just act like friends"
He opens a smile
"What?" now the tension is not so big like before.
"Nothing..." he giggles
"Say it"
"No...you will slap me again"
"Say it now...I would slap you again anyway" I joke
"It's just that I remembered how was our 'friendship'...like when we were 'friends' when you were still dating my brother"
"Oh...this" I try not to smile too but failed...I'm really angry with Harry but moments like this make me feel bad for 'hating' him. Of course I don't hate him...actually it would be easier if I did. My relationship with Harry it's very...complicated...we fight a lot and that's exhausting, and even that already passed some time, I'm still bad of what I did with Edward...we never really talked after he discovered everything.

"So...I think you should get going" I say to him
"Are you sure?" he asks
"I need some space...and we are taking a break so please go"
"Fine" he says getting his stuff so he could leave.
He starts walking in my direction and before I could think I feel his warms lips against mine. But he takes it off very quickly.
"Oh sorry...force of habit" he says after he realized what he did
"It's...fine" No it's not. Kissing Harry makes everything more difficult, that's because I miss kissing him,his kisses are wonderful and I know that if he didn't take off his lips of mine faster I would have kissed him back.
"Just please go"
"Yeah...sure"

After Harry left my apartment the only think I can think is he. I think taking a break was the best thing...this 'relationship' that I don't know if I can really call it relationship was exhausting...always fighting always arguing just like that. That's not good for both of us.

Someone nocks the door interrupting my thoughts.

"Hey Lydia" I say opening the door
"Hey Abby" she smiles and hugs me
"Were you at Stefan's?"
"yeah...I saw you yesterday with Lucas... I knew I shouldn't get home"
I give her a nervous smile
"Relax...I'm not judging you...I'm your best friend I wouldn't"
I smile,this time a real one.
"Own...someone is in a good mood"
"Yeah...very good" she smiles
She get inside and sit on the chair I was in.
"Happened"
"What?" I look to her
"Stefan and I...you know...happened"
"But I thought..."
"No...not everything" she interrupts me
"but the day I saw him here..."
"we didn't have sex...almost but didn't"
I get excited with her as she is seems very happy.
"So tell me...how was it?"
"Great, really, very romantic actually... he is a very good guy he wasn't an asshole like all the others"
"That's great" I say
"Yes...and he was kind...caring... everything good...really this time was different...a better different"
"That's really great...I'm happy for you really" she hugs me again
"And what about you? What happened yesterday?" She asks. I roll my eyes remembering everything that happened until Harry left the apartment.
"Long story"
"I have time"  She smiles