Attraction // h.s {COMPLETE}

40- Thirteen days

Thirteen days.
We didn't talk to each other for thirteen days.
Yeah for someone that I thought she couldn't live one day without kissing him that's an advance.
I can't believe he didn't call. Any call. Any message. Nothing.
He is really over me. I thought he would try at least.
There is nothing. Nothing I do that doesn't reminds me of him. Every single thing I do reminds me of him some way.
Even going to the beach reminds me of him. God I hate him. Well if I did would be easier but no. The real fucking thing is the fact that I don't hate him...I fucking love him.
Stop it Abby. Stop it. Stop it. He doesn't love you anymore. It was fake. He would be here if he did.
He doesn't care about you.
"Stop missing someone that doesn't give a fuck about you Abby" I say out loud trying to convince myself.
Doesn't work as I thought.
"Abby there is someone that wants to talk to talk to you on the kitchen." Lydia tells me.
"Who?"
"Go there."
I go there and see Harry.
"What are you doing here?" It's the only thing I can ask.
"I wanted to see you."
I don't know what to say. I didn't expect that. What is he doing here? He really missed me? So why any call...any message?
"You never contacted me...why?"
"Look Abby...I know that there is no apology. Okay. I'm sorry but I missed you as hell. When you left I was stressed. Angry. I'm sorry. It's not your fault okay. You know when you asked for space. So I gave you but..."
"Space? That was before. This time you was incapable of asking how I would live here. You totally forgot me for thirteen days."
"I know I know. But please understand I didn't forget you. I would never. We didn't talk for thirteen days and it was the most difficult days of my life Abby. I'm serious okay. I was an idiot okay? I was immature because I was afraid of losing you...Abby you are always going to be the most important person of my life...even if I'm not yours."
I don't know what to say...there is a lot of emotions passing trough my mind right now.
"Harry I..."
"Please forgive me."
"But what about you...we both know we can't date with you leave in Seattle. And don't think that saying that you missed me will make things clear. You ignored me for fucking thirteen days."
"I know I know okay...but Abby please..." He kneels in front of me and take my hands. "Abby understand that I know that I shouldn't have not contacted you but I regret it okay... I'm here okay? I travelled 2,020 kilometers to see you Abby."
I take a long breath.

"Tell me why...why you didn't call me or send any message? Why Harry why? Look I know that I'm not te perfect girlfriend okay...I always freakout for everything and I can be very boring some times but I was always like that even before we started dating so yeah Harry there is no apology for you not talking to me for thirteen days."

He gets up and suport his hands on my shouloders.

"Abby no...no, don't think like that please... you were...are the best girlfriend any guy could have..Yeah you do freakout  for anything but that's like you are and I love it..." Someone nocks the door interrupting Harry.

"Coming..." I yell then go open the door.

"Oh hi, Peter...what a surprise."

He opens a wide smile letting his beautiful tooth shows up.

"Hey...well I was passing by and thought  if you would like to go somewhere..."

"What the hell?" Harry screams.

"Harry that's Peter my new neighbor...Peter that's Harry my...Harry" I stop myself of saying boyfriend.

"Her boyfriend." Harry says firmily.

"Was..." I get out of the apartment letting Harry there and walk to the lifting with Peter.

"Sorry about Harry...would be a pleasure going out with you, but today it is a little difficult we can do it some other day..."

"Oh it is okay I didn't know you had a boyfriend but if it is on the past like you said would be awsome going out with you." I open my best smile and hug him.

"I'm really sorry okay...so I guess I see you tomorrow."

"Sure"

I go back to my apartment and see Harry passing his hands through his hair like he always does when he is nervous.

"I can't belive that...you said that I was the problem but this whole time you were cheating on me...You are the real bitch right here."

"No no no Harry that is not what looks like. Do you really think I cheated on you...well it would be much easier than suffer everyday... every single day because I realised that you were fake...all the 'love' was fake...everything." I scream letting a tear shows up.

"Fake? Do you really think it was fake? So why would I travel for 19 hours just to see you?!"

"I don't know...I have no idea but that must explain why you didn't talk to me for thirteen days too..."

He shakes his head and stare at me.
I do the same and we both keep in silence. Just silence. We don't say any single word for minutes.
"I'm leaving. " He finally says.
"Great."
"Great." He imitates me.
"What are you a kid?"
"Does a kid do this?" He holds my arms and stay millimeters away from my mouth. I feel his breath. He is breathing very slowly. He stares at my eyes.
"Answer me." He provokes whispering even closer to my lips.
"I don't care." I push his body.
He rolls his eyes.
"Wasn't you leaving?" I ask.
He leave the apartment.
Lydia shows up.
"Hey Sis...are you okay?"
She hugs me.
"I'm fine." I lie.
We sit on the couch.
"Of course you aren't...baby like I said before he is a dick...you can find someone better...someone that doesn't hurt you so many times like he does."
I start crying. She is right I can find someone better. But the thing is I don't want someone better. I want him. I want Harry. He is an asshole. He only hurts me. But in the end of all of this I fucking love him. But I can't let him do this with me. He acts like he doesn't matter if I'm okay or not. I can't be with someone that doesn't care about me.
"Lyd...do you ever felt like you love someone that doesn't give a fuck about you but you still do?"
"Actually yes...a lot of times...until I found Stefan. He was the first one. The first one that treated me like I deserve. And believe me it makes the whole difference."
I sigh.
"I don't know I feel like Harry and I are perfect, everything is great, but once if one thing happens everything changes. That's the point. I can't be with someone that to one second to another change everything..." I sigh again.
"Do you get it?"
"Of course I do...And I'll be always here to support you...always."
I lay on her lap.