Neko <-.->a Black Butler story<-.->

Neko Night, Confused

"My pet."

"Se-sebastian? Is that you?"

"You betrayed me."

I winced as my neck began to burn, "N-no! I didn't! Ciel ordered it- I had to-"

"You did not."

"I d-did! Sebastian! Please beleave me!" I begged.

When there was no answer, I paniced. "Sebastian? Sebastian! Come back! Don't leave me!"

I sat up sharply to see Undertaker.  "Neko? Are you alright?"

"Yes!" I answered a little too quickly.

His lovely green eyes were filled with worry and doubt. "You're white as a sheet," he said as he placed a hand on my cheek.

I pulled away from his touch immidiatly, the sting in my neck reminding me of the dream.

My head spun. I was so confused. Sebastian was my master... we had a contract and I loved him...didn't I? I didn't know anymore.

I cared so much for Undertaker, and he for me. Was that what love was? Or was it different?

"I'm going to make you some tea. I'll be right back."

I nodded absentmindedly and he left the room.

Weren't you supposed to know whan you loved someone? Wasn't that how it worked?

But I had never known love; and so I didn't know. I had no idea.

I had seen it though, in people I'd seen. Couples who came to see the circus and on the street. Holding hands. Young and old.

I had seen it but I didn't understand it, and I had no one to ask. No one to explain it to me.

Weren't parents supposed to do this sort of thing? Mothers?

But I didn't have either. I was alone. And confused.