Find The Beauty Within

Giving Her A Chance

"photographs open doors into the past, but they also allow a look into the future." -Sally Mann

Dinah pov

after the date, I immediately ran into my room and cried. I sat on my bed with my legs close to my chest as I rested my head on my knees. she was a mistake. I shouldn't have trusted her. I hear Camila and Lauren talk to someone but I didn't really care to find out. then I heard footsteps come up and when my door opened, Camila had a look on her face. I instantly knew who it was.

"I don't want to see her."

she gave me a sad nod but retreated downstairs after closing my door. I lean to my side to grab my phone that was on the side table beside me and went to my music. I started blasting No Love by August Alsina. I laid back onto my bed and pulled the covers up. I could see my vision get blurry and I hastily wiped them away. I threw the blanket off and went downstairs. I realized I haven't eaten and I was really hungry. I was still in the dress that I wore for the date because I didn't have the energy to change. I was surprised when I saw the sight. Normani was standing at the door with Lauren and Camila still talking to her. I walked down quietly but then Normani made eye contact with me.

"Dinah.." I heard her say, which made lauren and Camila turn around.

"what's up?" Lauren asked, walking towards me.

"I-I realized I haven't eaten yet.."

Lauren looks over at Camila, who just nodded. Lauren grabbed my hand and led me to the kitchen. I gave her a curious look but she dismissed it with a wave of a hand.

"what do you want?"

"c-can you take m-me to wingstop?" I asked quietly, twiddling with my fingers.

"look at me, Dinah."

I took a harsh gulp before raising my head to look at her. she was smiling and it was confusing me.

"why are you smiling?"

"because I was actually craving for some wings. I would've made you some food but the fact you said that made me jump in joy. I'll ask Camila because I have to go to work soon."

I nod my head as I followed Lauren out of the kitchen. Camila was still talking to Normani but in a whisper. I guess she didn't want me to hear. I just wish she'd go away. I'm not in the mood to deal with her and her bs. I've heard it all before.

"camz, Dinah wants to go to wingstop."

"really? okay! Dinah, go change." Camila excitedly screamed, as I rolled my eyes.

"can she leave? I don't want her to be here any longer than she has to."

"Dinah.." Camila whined.

"no, she's the one that didn't do anything about the waitress. I was there feeling invisible and she did nothing about it. I really wish I didn't meet her."

I walked away but as soon as I stepped on the first step, Normani spoke up.

"I get it okay? I should've noticed but she was being nice to me that I didn't realize how much of an ass she really was being to you. I'm sorry for that. when she brought the food out and you left, I left the food behind just to go to you. I wanted to take you somewhere else but you didn't give me a chance. I'm invested in you Dinah. I want to know every single thing about and your backstory. I want to know what made you so insecure about yourself that you can't take compliments from other people. how you think that you're not worth it but in reality you are. you intrigue me and i have never been so interested in another person like I am with you. you're different Dinah and that's good. you're special and I want to show you that I am genuinely going to be here for you if you let me. I want to have a future with you because you are my muse. you're going to be the reason why i fall in love with photography even more. I will capture pictures of you when you expect it and when you don't because I hope that one day you'll see how beautiful you really are. I'm going to tell you every day that you are whether you believe me or not. I'm sorry I ranted." she said, laughing nervously as she rubbed her neck.

I stood there shocked. I didn't expect that from her. I thought she would've said something completely different but she melted my heart. maybe she isn't like the rest. maybe I can trust her. I gripped the handrail even tighter when I heard someone walk towards me. a soft hand grabbed my wrist and made me turn around. my face ended up being buried in their neck. I inhaled and I knew it was Normani. she smelled like strawberries.

"I promise that I'm not like the rest and if you give me a chance then I can show you. I want you to be my inspiration."

my body began to hurt because she was shorter than me and I'm basically leaning down just to match her height. I pulled away from her and she had sadness in her eyes.

"I'll give you a chance but one wrong move and I'm out."

"I won't hurt you."

I nod and was about to walk upstairs when I stopped myself. I turned around to look at Normani, who was staring at my ass. I cleared my throat and her eyes met mine. she smiled nervously.

"I'm going to pretend that didn't happen but would you like to come with us?"

she looks at Lauren and Camila before looking back at me. I smiled before grabbing her hand and pulling her to my room.

"you can wear my clothes if you want. my closet is filled with lazy clothes. I'm not like Lauren and Camila. I prefer to wear sweatpants and baggy shirts."

"I don't mind." she whispered, as I gave her some clothes.

I told her that she could change there and I headed to the bathroom to go change. as I was about to close the door, I saw Normani take off her shirt and I bit my bottom lip. she looked beautiful. a body that I could never have but I wanted. I forced myself to close the door and get changed. I can't let myself get attached with her because I'm still unsure of her intentions. I don't want to get hurt again. that's what I vowed never to let happen again. I have to stay strong.

I quickly changed out of the dress and into my comfortable clothes before opening the bathroom door. my breath hitched in the back of my throat at the sight of Normani. she looked better in my clothes than I did. God, she's beautiful. she's everything that I wish I could be.

"Dinah?" I hear her ask.

I quickly shook my head and looked at Normani, who had concern in her eyes. I gave her a weak smile before heading out the room.

"let's go get some food! I'm starving!"

she followed hesitantly and we met with Lauren and Camila in the car. we headed off to wingstop in silence but it wasn't awkward. I don't know if I could get used to this but all I know is that I'm starting to like this girl. why did she like me? what's so special about me? am I really worthy of her? what if I can't make her happy? all these thoughts rushed through my head and I started to hyperventilate.

"are you okay?" Normani asked me, putting her hand over mine.

"y-yes." i managed to say.

she gave me a look which told me she didn't believe me. I intertwined our fingers and surprised her.

"d-"

"I was just thinking, I didn't mean to scare you. it's just that when my thoughts start rushing through my head, it gets harder to breathe. I'm sorry if I scared you."

"don't be. as long as you're okay then that's all that matters."

she smiled at me and I smiled back. it was genuine. maybe she is different. I can't wait to see what's in store for us.