Find The Beauty Within

It Kills Me

  "photography is not about the cameras, gadgets, and gismos. photography is about photographers. a camera didn't make a great picture anymore than a typewriter makes a great novel." -Peter Adams

Dinah pov

being friends with normani .. that's the only way that I could still have her in my life even though it breaks my heart seeing her love someone else . I can't complain because I was the one that broke her heart . I didn't deserve a beautiful woman like her. I would just be a burden to her and I don't want to be the one to keep her from what she wants in life . I wouldn't be able to keep her happy . she made me feel better about myself even if I still didn't feel happy with myself . she told me that I shouldn't let other people's opinions bring me down . the only opinion that matters is what I think .

I like the thought of having normani around . she'll be around someone that loves her and treats her like how she deserves. she deserves so much and I couldn't give it to her . I hate that and I wish I could've been the one she wanted . it's just that zendaya seems more of a match than I was .

"Dinah , how do you feel about going to six flags magic mountain ?" Lauren asked, holding my hand.

"I honestly don't mind . when are we leaving ?"

"soon . we got the tickets and everything so all we basically have to do is get the card after the scan our fingerprint . mani and zendaya are coming if that's okay."

"ally coming ?"

"nope , she has work . Camila won't be home until around 7 today and I don't work tonight so it'll just be me and you with them ."

"okay , should I bring a swimsuit if we're going on some water rides ?"

"I mean we can just go to the beach later on if you want . there's no use in wearing it over there if they don't have that many water rides ."

"I see . are we going to eat out before we got to the beach?"

"we can if the other two agree . also Camila can meet up with us there too . her work isn't too far from the beach so that's good ."

"yeah , I guess so . so are we meeting up here or anywhere specific?"

"we're waiting for them to get here and we'll ride one car . then after wards , we can take them home for them to go back to Ally's house in Mani's car."

"okay , that's good . I have to be applying for a job soon . I can't just be stuck in the house all day . it's kind of driving me insane ."

"where do you plan on working at ?"

"probably at wingstop. you know how much I love their wings ."

"we all do . that seems like a great place , just remember if a customer is rude , put on a smile and don't do anything dumb . I don't want you to lose your job within minutes . that won't be good ."

"I think I can handle rude customers."

"call me if you can't handle it and I'll come down there to cuss their ass out ."

"Laur, we don't need you to get kicked out of my favorite place."

"I'm not about to have my little baby get yelled at for something you didn't do ."

"everyone has to get through work with a couple buttholes here and there . there's no need to cuss someone out because they aren't worth it ."

"you're right ! oh but I think they're here . I'm pretty sure I heard the car."