Love, _________

The Unseen Piece

I'm screaming dammit

Hear it

Someone please hear me

I'm broken

I'm breaking

I'm fine

I want to slit my wrists open

I want to fuck myself up

I want to get high

I want to get somewhere high

Only to jump

I want to fly and fall

No you're not allowed to save me

I want to starve

Till I'm nothing but bone

I want to destroy myself

And make you watch

My heart hurts

Do I even have one?

Is that pain just the feeling

Of the amputated organ

Who stole it

Who took it

They took you in it

You were in my heart

You're in my head

I can't tell if I want you to leave

Or if I should keep you there

I need you

To help me

Where's my heartbeat

No ones listened to it

Who would listen to silence

It echos the beat

Of the song playing around it

Whatever that may be

I have so many

Too many to hide behind

I can't continue anymore

I can't fake anymore smiles

I can't cover anymore scars

I can't eat anymore food

I can't get better

And I'm sorry love

But I should go

Short suspension

How many pills till my heart bursts?

Would you sing me to sleep

If I bled out on the floor

Would you read the note I leave behind

When I jump off that overpass

I'm sorry for leaving

Before you do

I'm sorry for leaving so early too

Three months

I already know I'd be devastated

If something happened to you

I can't afford that

I'll go in your place

You can grow old in mine

I love you

I'll whisper

Before I fall back into the black

I love you

Goodnight