Love, _________

Without Whole

I used to go weeks

Walking like this

Just wandering

Right, Left, Right, Left

My mind simultaneously

Empty and

Over stimulated

Circling like a buzzard

Slow and sluggish

Disconcerting, all the same

I used to go weeks

Silent like this

Not a word was said

Taking in everything

My tongue lays dead

Waiting to be buried

I'll speak with my body

My actions

There are no words

Just understand me

I used to go weeks

Deaf like this

I've chosen music over

Their furious screams

Can you blame me?

My eyes watch

My mouth unmoving

I'm memorize the shape of

"I don't want to watch

You die"

On his lips

Vacant smiles

Mirror vacant gazes

I use to go weeks

Blind like this

Green storms swallowed whole

By the dark

I can stare for hours

I'll never see your worries look

Are my eyes vacant

Or dead?

Blurry vision,

Exhaustion and tears

Teach me to see

I use to go weeks

Dead like this

Being me back

To when I was like this

Alive hurts too much

Death is my lover

It makes me feel

Safer

It saved me from my hell

It took away the pain

I used to go weeks

Numb like this

What do you do

With blind eyes

With deaf ears

With incessant wandering

With a mute tongue

With a dead heart

Worthless

Incapable

I'm the helpless daughter

I'm the hopeless girl

I'm the failure friend

Your smile

Is the only thing I have

Left

There's nothing left of me

A waltzing skeleton

Too sad

Scared

Or otherwise

Just whisper me, goodnight

And watch more weeks

Go by