Dear Diary
í'm mad, so mad. At myself, at Louis, at Zayn, at Modest and at Fucking Eleanor. That stupid girl came over, again. AND LOUIS DIDN'T CARE, AGAIN! I'm so sad. So sad Diary. The fact that we are in love, and he still doesn't care. I cried a lot, togheter with Niall. Ellie Goulding said she didn't like him. Girls are stupid Diary, just stupid.
Today i met a fan, and she told me something beautifull. That it doesn't matter who i love, when it makes me happy it's good. And i decided Louis doesn't make me happy, he's trying to, but he just doesn't. And well.. i did something bad. I cut myself again, so deep that i bled so much they had to take me to the hospital. So now i'm lying here, and i fucking hate it. Sorry i shouldn't say fucking. I don't like it here. I really hate it. I hate myself, and my life. I mean why me? Why do i love a guy? Not just a girl, like everyone else? I wanne be like everyone else. I wanna be normal. I don't want to be Harry Styles annymore.
Dear Diary, i'm really done with my life. Everything that's happening is hurting me, and i can't help it. I secretly hope this is my last day on earth. I love my fans, i love the music, i love my best friends. But it's to much. I can't handle it annymore. I'm trying to focus on the things i love, but there arn't many things annymore. There is Niall, Zayn Liam Louis and my fans. There's nothing more.. Nothing more to life for..
Lots of love
Harry edward styles.
