Dear Diary
Pain is all i feel. I'm not even kidding. Life has become so hard. I shouldn't have kissed Lou, for real. Now we started dating, he's only acting weirder, and i can handle it annymore.
Niall took me to the roof of our hotel, and we where just sitting there. No talking, no thinking, just staring at the city. I don't know why, but it felt good. Good to be alone with your thoughts. I don't know what to do anymore. how is it possible that one moment everything is going perfect, and an other moment it's going so bad? I don't like it diary. I don't like it at all.
I was cutting my arm when louis came walking in. He saw me, started screaming an crying. The weirdest part is that I didn't even care about it. It's that I love him so much, otherwise he would be out of my life. Forever.
So now I'm here, lying on my bed, tears streaming down my face. I don't know what to do, I don't know where to go. I don't know anything. I can't focus on the music anymore. I want to, but I just can't. I'm thinking about louis every day, every second. We had sex last night, and it felt so good. But when we where done, he started acting weird again. is he scared? Doesn't he like me? what's going on diary?
Lots of love
Harry Edward styles
